爱上周杰伦

well e last 2 wks is like a jay chou revival wk for me... muz be due to that kbox session wif yl and nic... lol

周杰伦 - 我不配 (The actress in the MV is OMG CHIO LA... not to mention oversized shirt... :D)

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及 仔仔细细 写下你的关於
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及 仔仔细细 写下你的关於
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配


这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
(这 已经不对)
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
( 我努力挽回)
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
(可是我忽略 wo 不要人陪)
Ho 这感觉 已经不对
(这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解)
最后才了解
(一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累)
(你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴)
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

周杰伦 - 彩虹 (Most emo song of that album i think... omg i dint know wad the mtv was a bt until today... a bit like korean drama la ar... cancer and stuff :D... EMO!!!) (oh and the actress in the MV is CUTE... 单眼皮女生)

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着(睡得着)
你的身影这么近我却抱不到 (抱不到)
没有地球太阳还是会绕 (还是会)
没有理由我也能自己走 (能自己走)

你要离开 我知道很简单 (知道很简单)
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍 (给我们阻碍)
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP：
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开 我知道很简单 (知道很简单)
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍 (给我们阻碍)
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

It's amazing...

How fast and how much ppl believe and misunderstand the meanings of words online... :D

2 posts in a row...

This one's abt serious stuff... well..

quoting from a friend's post:
"Is love/relationship(s) a game? My answer was (and still is) a clear no; and the natural progression to that is.

Apparently, by playing the game, it supposedly enhances one’s chances of getting into a relationship. To me though (and also to Y Y), this relationship is not one built on a stable ground. By playing the game, the suitor is tailoring his/her image to suit the perceived “wants” of the courted, and if the suitor guesses these “wants” correctly, he/she gets the partner he/she desires. The suitor does not reveal his true self to the courted, and this goes on until they spend enough time together (or even get married) to find out about each other’s true selves.

Talking about true selves, let me digress a little and explain a little more by what I mean “true self”. The true self refers to the character and personality traits formed between birth through the formative years, up till Primary 6 (or 12 years of age). The traits formed during this period are almost unshakeable, and while most, if not all, traits seem to disappear as they grow older (and the surroundings change), they actually don’t. What happens is, each time they meet with a setback, or encounter something different that they are unable to reconcile with their “true self”, they board it up with a wall, either to prevent more hurt, or to blend in with the surroundings. Over the years, these walls grow and grow and grow, and they suddenly seem so different from their younger days. Which is not true, since strictly speaking, their outward appearance now is a mask.

Getting to know the “true self” of another is not very easy, especially if the walls are thick and many. Of course, if one catches the other in a vulnerable state, one might get lucky and actually get a glimpse of the “true self’ without much time and effort. On the other hand, most are not that lucky, and really, time and effort needs to be invested.

This is the reason why I do not believe in playing the game. Call me silly, old-fashioned, or idealistic, but this is something I really believe in: that the first step in getting into a relationship (or chasing your earmarked partner) is through being friends. Get to know the other person well; hang out with him/her, invest genuine and honest time in developing the friendship.

To me the ideal progression would be: Acquaintance -> Friends -> Good Friends -> Boy/Girl-friend. If the relationship eventually evolves to the last stage, I believe it is one built on a very strong and stable foundation, since both most likely have seen the “true self” of the other, and must have liked and be able to accept what they each saw in the other.

I fully understand the risks that meanwhile, the partner might get attached by those playing the game, or that it will stop at the “Good Friend” stage. I know that all too well, having personally gone through that before. Success rates are not guaranteed too, but if one is really looking for a long-term, stable relationship with a low potential of having an acrimonious break-up, then this is the route to take.

It’s one I’ve chosen. I’m a nice guy to everyone, regardless of gender; but sometimes, I go the extra mile for that special someone. Unfortunately, it’s never noticed, and such deeds are normally swept under the “Good/Very Good friend”category, which I, while slightly disappointed, wouldn’t lose too much sleep over; and if not, even taken for granted."

I would agree on some of the stuff... It makes some logical sense in that by playing the game, it's like a shortcut gamble... if ur lucky u'll find that your inner selves click... or else prepare to get ur heart broken... i agree if the foundation is nt stable the relationship is bound to fail...

but i've also seen cases where people hit off within a month and stay together forever... call it love at first sight or whatever u like... these things do happen... and the mentality of the world now is, yes i am willing to take this gamble, consequences later on... probably the reason why u say is true... i'm not saying i approve of playing the game... i'm saying there are many others who approve of playing the game... thus ppl like us who do not wish to play the game are left with a small pool of ppl of the other sex who do not wish to play the game to select from... and tat sux totally i tell u

and yes i so agree that sometimes when we do nice things for our so called "special one" and they get ignored or thrown into the bin called "good friends"... why is this so? probable reason is they dun view u as their "special one"... simple as that... becuz someone else is also doing nice things for him/her and the other person is higher up on the ladder...

which brings us to the ladder theory... how guys and girls rank the opposite sex on a ladder... although some of the parts sound like a sore loser who juz got ditched by their other half, some parts of the theory lay true in the modern world... it's the case of if i can get smth better in my opinion, why not... which is why players stand out more prominently that non players... all becuz they portray what the other party wants while you may only portray certain characteristics that they like, but not all of it...

so should we play the game or not to play the game... my stand is yes and no... in certain ways some things needs to be portrayed to get the other person's attention, or even just to move up the ladder, and by doing so it's hard not to alter some of our comfort circles... but if the transformation is too vast until u become a totally different person from you, i say dun waste your time on the person... it wun last... in conclusion? i think it's best u be a player to as small an extent as possible to get the other person... but never more than 50%... given modern world circumstances...

When i post, it's nothing good... trust me...

Few things i wish to say... abt what i've seen today... well maybe right maybe wrong...

1. why is a bash, which is just supposed to be a normal event being publicised as a valentine's day bash??? no 1 the name... no 2 the giving of flowers today... the other publicity stunts before this was ok, robbery, wood running, loud hailing, giving out namecards/flyers... but flowers??? i mean when i ask ppl outside NUS "pls come for *bash" i get the response "why u guys hold a v day bash so early"... tat's e impression ppl are getting? mkting strategy? riding on another's good will in this case a special occasion's good will? well i can't say its ineffective... i'm just saying is it right?... economically yes... others? not to forget the skeptical faces and straight no thanx faces given by several unsporting public today... it's awkward to say the least... and not exactly all flowers were taken home for the record... so does it become a turn on (in terms of publicity) or a turn off? i leave tat to the staticians during the main event on saturday for that answer... after all the normal singaporean thinking wld be why shld u care... ur nt the publicity head, ur nt the org head... if they think it's ok, just do as you're told, do what they want... but sorrie i'm just nt the kind of person u can hoo haa arnd... if i see reason, i will help out... well the onli reason i see is becuz it raises awareness, but my full approval? nah... juz feels like some ji ko peh/despos giving out v day flowers to girls asking them to come on a mass date... ya tat's wad it looks like to those ppl who gave the weird looks...

2. someone said today that girls look for 安全感. and in some ways it can be seen when u reject e person and he kept on liking u for maybe a year? tat means he's sincerely in love wif u and u get 安全感... but hey come on someone else liked a girl for 5 years... on and off kinda stuff coz e girl juz doesn't reciprocate sometimes... so this theory fails in this aspect doesn't it... i dun know... i'm not like the love expert kinda stuff, i just listen to ppl's opinions and try to compile them... i mean true to certain extent that some girls dun fall for guys easily and they take some time to like someone... so confessing to them too early wld probably result in them shutting u out so that they dun lead u on... and by perservering sometimes it just results in more shutting out and relates to dislike... while others fall for guys easily and wow within a month of knowing each other they got attached... so what's the guideline? i guess it's knowing the other person well... but how well do u need to know the person to know when is the right timing? becuz before the timing no good, after the timing also no good... drag too long and ur thrown into the good friends onli bin or the irky stalker bin (like a particular someone who failed to confess when given the chance recently)... wow sounds very 烦 rite? little wonder singapore's birth rate is so low... after getting attached still have to think when's the right time to pop the important question and where... then still got when to have kids and stuff... i leave tat for later, i haven finish step 1 yet...

end of the day, i'm 烦ing somethings that doesn't reallie concern me... but tat's me i think too much... maybe... actually i think somethings that happened today helps me understand certain ppl better... i dun know... actually if u ask me now.. i still can't figure out what's the right time... or how long it wld take to fall for a person... which kinda complicates matters... well that's the hard part i guess... finding out whether the other person has fallen for u... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bored at home

everytime i'm at home and have nothing to do... i start thinking about things... and often in a bad way... probably why i'm stuck to the comp most of e time at home... keep myself occupied so that i wun think of such stuff

but today... the thinking kinda overshadowed the gaming... prolly becuz of what has conspired over the past few months... or rather transpired... which ever one we're not particular over english here aren't we...

i start thinking about whether NUS biz was my right choice... as in certain stuff that happened in front of me, whether intentionally or unintentionally, is making me wonder, is this really the kind of company that i want? that i can fit in? that i truely wanna be...

and i start to think... what would happen if i had went to SMU or NTU instead... what if i decided nt to go uni and went into the working society... would i have met such ppl... would i have met some great friends that i have made the last few months...

and i wonder... if i had gone elsewhere... with a different setting, would i have been disappointed, depressed, mixed feelings, troubled feelings, etc etc that i have been having the last few days... it's making me crumble... it makes me feel being unable to see what's ahead of me and arnd me in my life... and yes it conjures suicidal thoughts... but to those concerned who read the previous line... no i've long convinced myself many yrs ago that i wld nvr commit suicide... no matter how hard life is, i'll let it end naturally... so if god wans me to go up there, he has to get a bus to knock me over... and thoroughly...

maybe it's juz becuz i think too much... or maybe i'm just a guy... who easily fall for girls who are close to him... or are nice to him... whatever it is... i dun reallie care... all i know is i'm troubled... and tat's all

rant post... as usual... my blog is my avenue to destress

世界上最远的距离是我在你身旁，而你不知道我喜欢你。
世界上最难的事是我站在你面前，告诉你我喜欢你。
世界上最痛苦的事是我在你身边，而不能告诉你我喜欢你。
世界上最遗憾的事是我站在你面前，却没告诉你我喜欢你。