The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

haha dun ask me y i'm a sucker when it comes to early 2000s music...

anyway i think i recall someone told me her cca b4 and i stupidly asked her againz some days later... argh... shucks... i need more hard disk space in my head...

juz recalled smth someone wanted to ask...

ya basically someone wanted to ask if i liked someone else i think yesterday... now tat i recall... sorrie arh i'm a goldfish remember? 3 second memory onli... :P

anywayz i juz tot abt it, e answer's gonna be no. coz basically i dun wan to get attached now... studies is one, the right person is another... somehow i haven reallie met a person who wld blow me off my feet yet... so haha... singlehood looks better now... single and available but not looking... <--- think can qualify as it's complicated?? haha complex logic nvm...

still comtemplating on webcast or school... GRRRR

Change what you cannot accept, Accept what you cannot change

lol old saying... wonder why it took so long for me to realise this logic...

anyway the line came from some hongkong drama series so time ago... hmmmz in a way it's like saying try ur best to change what you cannot accept, if nt give up and accept the things you cannot accept... haha

well i guess i juz gave up on 3 things... nt gonna say what here... haiz... hope things work out bahx... yawnz

and odex juz got pwned by pacnet... GG

Dun expect too many happons (measure of happiness) in this post

great... just about to start blogging when i realised i agreed to go to 2 birthdays this sat... SHIT... hang on...

ok misunderstanding... maybe i'm just wired too uptight these days... easily provoked easily stressed equally easily pissed...

anywayz starting from where i left off... Rag day... learnt some not so nice things about rag on that day itself... well but in the end business still won... so i guess all is well? for now i guess... and then followed by quite a failed outing at mind cafe... well i guess 16 ppl is juz too many for a place designed for games 2-8... :P

then there was the 1st wk of lectures... well all i can say is the lectures were ultra boring... but nonetheless some stuff were quite impt so no choice but to sit thru e bore... well to the extent that i actually finished off a professional class sudoku on my phone during FNA lect :P...

discovered that this 2 wks so far been staying back in school walking arnd aimlessly or camping in comp lab to print notes... guess tat's wad happens when u get 2 hr lectures EACH day of the wk... bahx... felt like i'm juz trying to tag along wif certain grps of ppl... in a way i feel bad coz like everyone's supposed to have a life of their own and i'm juz like tagging along other ppl's lives... maybe i'm thinking too much here also...

congrats to philip and elijah and june and ingrid for making it to the final round of pageant... yay u've done crusaders proud :P... and u guys reallie look good in those model shots haha

been going arnd scouting for textbooks and used textbooks... but to no avail... seems like a lot of the text have to buy new ones coz there's juz insufficient old textbooks for our large cohort... brrrrrr... thinking of the resale situation nxt sema and nxt yr alr... too much supply too lil demand... great... probably gonna go get e textbooks by tml... nt bothering to wait alr...

then still some matters close to the heart i have yet to resolve... in fact i dun think i am still mature enough to handle it... maybe someone was rite... 23 is the number... what i'm sore about is why... in fact i realised there's just too many things i dun bother to go correct or fix alr... juz becoming sore has become like my excuse for it... apathetic... maybe... haha irony with the previous post... or is it that i'm juz sore of failing... probably... certain things just dint turn out the way i wan them to be... changing of class included since like i took an initiative to do something... yet nothing pays off these days... maybe these years... god i still can remember the times in lower secondary when i'm just optimistic about everything... and so far these few years life has never failed to show me i'm so wrong about it... tough life? maybe... which is why i tend to go back into my shell when things go wrong... a battle hardened shell reinforced over years of bad luck and troubles... well at least suicidal tots were a thing of the past... at least it taught me to treasure any good happenings coz they are just so rare...

oh a lighter note... check this out..

Tired & not apathetic...

it's late, shld be resting esp since i dint sleep much e last few days due to chalet and stuff... anywayz juz wld like to say tat i still do not carry myself well when i'm tired and stuff... so apologies to anyone who felt insulted, annoyed by my actions... nitez

I need to know all about you

Bic Runga - Sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

Emo-litez 2

lol paiseh arh... if anyone's reading this... give u ppl 2 emo songs from bon jovi... dunno why at this hour i'll think of this kinda songs la... it juz comes to mind...

Bon Jovi - All About Lovin' You (Good song to sing to your girlfriend if you've got one :D)

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you
All about lovin' you

Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me (Good for JUST attached couples... serious!)

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Oh pls dun mistake me... i dint juz get hitched or smth like tat... maybe juz a lil smitten... tat's all... it's a secret P.S. hehe well at least now i know why e heck i'm so emo these days... :P

Emo-litez

lol i realise i have a tendency to blog once a week...

anywayz i'm still in nearly the same mood the whole week... hope i dint offend anyone or cause any wrong ideas along the way... if so i sincerely apologise...

nt gonna go into details about o week la... the events were too boring to say the least... but i definitely met a bunch of nice ppl for my og... haha anywayz yesterday was dean's evening which sort of marks the end of orientation program for biz... went walawala and ktv aft tat wif lin-note ppl aft tat for chill out until e nxt morning... haha

comp's got some virus... been trying to clear up e whole day... think it's much better now... grrr

anywayz tml gonna settle tuition grant, go driving, get prezzie and perhaps head down to rag at nite and possibly staying over? idk... gonna ask philip wad's e program like tml... haha... anywayz saturday's rag... NUS will be at the padang!!! come and support :P

ok back to emo-ing...

苏惠伦 - 不想想太多

haha like 1 song name juz sums up my feelings now... i think... although i think the song lyrics itself mite apply several yrs ago... haha 1 whole bz O wk as expected... no time to emo den now den emo LOL... damn smart...

school's starting soon lo... somehow it doesn't feel the same like starting jc nor sec school... cld it be becuz we're more mature? or does it juz doesn't feel the same rigidity of education... or maybe i'm juz bored of doing orientation stuff... i dun know... i dun see where things are going and it's scary... especially when this is the time that decides your own future... if someone were to ask me do u see yourself as a accountant 10 yrs down the road... my answer is i'm not sure... and it's not what i planned for it to be... the answer should be YES I'M damn @#*@!(# sure becuz that shld be what it shld be...

oh and speaking of sick of doing orientation stuff... to think that i'm gonna transfer into a class where i dun know anyone... maybe onli 1 wilson but nobody else... the prospect of nt seeing familiar faces for time to come... yrs to come since accountancy modules are pre allocated for 3 yrs... imagining the friendships i've formed the last 1 month plus is going to slowly fade becuz of different tutorial groups and lecture groups... becuz we dun see each other... it scares me... i'm human after all... we're meant to be community organisms, not solo beings...

or perhaps i think too much... like how geps are trained... overthink overdo overwrong....

i wan to k box... sob sob... singing can relief stress... can relief emo....