Trying to stop myself from gourging my eyes out

Before i begin on explaining my rather disturbing topic... let me warn those potential cheaters at medical examinations... dun ever withhold info

back to topic... like i alwayz used to believe, god was never fair. there are strong ppl and weak ppl in this world, rich and poor, fertile lands and barren deserts.. everyone is different and that makes everyone unique... yet god is ever fair because where there is strong ppl, there wld be weak ppl, thus equilibrium exist.

ok tat sounded like uther bullshit god is imba period

as some mite know today was my medical examination for NTU admission... which the 1st paragraph mite give some insight of what actually transpired during the short 2 hour stint there... half of which spent trying to find where the **** is the medical centre... the place is big nonetheless

a lot of the words that the doctor told me actually hit me hard... of what reality out there is like... of what bearing the consequences mean... if you are willing to cheat, bear e consequence if u get caught... he's rite, out there it's not like army... u can't cover ur ass by juz keeping quiet...

so i've made up my mind... since god wants to match such burning interest with a major defect, i'm onli left with 2 choices : one is to gourge my eyes cry out to god shouting for fair judgement and perhaps once in a while go to bedok/bugis street to beg, or to try for another course... trip E is out of question and i dun reallie feel like falling back on my 2nd choice for engineering (aerospace)... i heard there's a new course smth like financial engineering (dunno wtf lame kind of name is tat... u manufacture MLM is it?)

i was wrong, i've been bluffing myself for too long that i can get into trip E... it's time to wake up move on and get smth else... b4 it's too late...

Protégé & Letters from Iwo Jima

watched 2 movies in like 3 days... woot protégé was good... e execution of the plot was good but pretty much predictable... looks more like a drug documentary on e other hand... lol now ppl know how to make heroin...

Letters from Iwo Jima was touching... after watching Flags of our Fathers, it's nice to know wad was happening on the other end of the war...

oh ya GV vivo has sucky seats for tall ppl in the normal cinemas... e inclination is so bad tat 3rd row and forward i have to arch my neck to see the screen alr... wth... but omg VIVOcity is BIG... as in BIG... i think it will take at least 2 days for serious shoppers to actually finish walking thru the whole building... plus it's like the cable car station tram station cruise center and shopping all added together = GG BIG

still have no response...

Happy Chinese New Year

yay... it's chinese new year... which means i've alr worked for 1 month alr... been enjoying e work at TKPS... although there were some frustrating issues but nonetheless it was enjoyable... sorrie to those which i have thrown tantrums at... bah now tat i think abt it it was quite silly for tat outburst...

yay... tml will be getting income... whoops as in ang bao money :D and meet up wif my relatives... hope everything goes fine...

oh regarding the CNY get together... i'll be waiting for the response... if none is given, i'll take it as a grp decision...