Trying to stop myself from gourging my eyes out

Before i begin on explaining my rather disturbing topic... let me warn those potential cheaters at medical examinations... dun ever withhold info

back to topic... like i alwayz used to believe, god was never fair. there are strong ppl and weak ppl in this world, rich and poor, fertile lands and barren deserts.. everyone is different and that makes everyone unique... yet god is ever fair because where there is strong ppl, there wld be weak ppl, thus equilibrium exist.

ok tat sounded like uther bullshit god is imba period

as some mite know today was my medical examination for NTU admission... which the 1st paragraph mite give some insight of what actually transpired during the short 2 hour stint there... half of which spent trying to find where the **** is the medical centre... the place is big nonetheless

a lot of the words that the doctor told me actually hit me hard... of what reality out there is like... of what bearing the consequences mean... if you are willing to cheat, bear e consequence if u get caught... he's rite, out there it's not like army... u can't cover ur ass by juz keeping quiet...

so i've made up my mind... since god wants to match such burning interest with a major defect, i'm onli left with 2 choices : one is to gourge my eyes cry out to god shouting for fair judgement and perhaps once in a while go to bedok/bugis street to beg, or to try for another course... trip E is out of question and i dun reallie feel like falling back on my 2nd choice for engineering (aerospace)... i heard there's a new course smth like financial engineering (dunno wtf lame kind of name is tat... u manufacture MLM is it?)

i was wrong, i've been bluffing myself for too long that i can get into trip E... it's time to wake up move on and get smth else... b4 it's too late...