Dreamers

Time Capsule

2011-01-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

This totally feels like a time capsule to me... and i wouldn't have been back here if my project ended up using blogger for an events page... interesting...

lost

2009-03-21T06:54:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder what i've done to deserve you... i dun know...

i wonder whether i'm in the right course... there's no turning back for me and neither do i see my path ahead... would things have been better if i had been in another course... surely i wldn't have met the ppl i know now... i dun know... i really dun know...

been eating 1.5 meals a day and sleeping irregularly...

i juz dun know

2009-02-09T14:24:00.003+08:00

Please, just tell me what to do. What more can I do?

I can't keep one eye close when I know it's bad for you. Even if you're gonna hate me in the end.

me

再一次拥有 - 龚诗嘉

2009-01-24T14:04:00.002+08:00

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去的曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边代替了那个从前

失去了的曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑只能比上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

2009-01-24T05:40:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling sad that we have to start anew...

but i feel that's the only way i can make up to you for hurting you all this while

2009-01-23T17:53:00.003+08:00

这街上太拥挤　
太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　
在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　
又斑驳了几句　　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　
隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对　
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

这街上太拥挤　
太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　
在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　
又斑驳了几句　　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　
隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

这感觉　已经不对我努力在挽回
（这已经不对）
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
（我努力在挽回）
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
（是我忽略　你要人陪）

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解
（这已经不对）
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
（最后才了解）
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

I'm sorry

林俊杰 - 我还想她

2009-01-20T03:29:00.002+08:00

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱她
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

nice song (: but damn emo haha
for the people who had to give up their love for someone and for the people who lost their love (:

Random Rant

2008-12-09T09:03:00.002+08:00

Bad luck doesn't make a person bad...

but it sure makes a person down...

laptop, desktop, exams, earphones, keys, vehicle... wonder wad else i can buang alr

First accident

2008-12-08T17:34:00.000+08:00

had a first accident today... wonder if i'm still in shock or rather still frustrated over the carelessness of the situations... the more i think back of it the more ways i can think of to avoid tat collision... shld had known from the way tat idiot was driving... clear road but he kept stopping near every side road and slowing down with no traffic in front of him... fucked up bangla... but also my fault in tat i did not take heed of that strange behaviour changed lane and moved on... neither did i stop fast enough in time... well partly becuz i had to watch for traffic on my right either... but the same frustrations zzz

1) juz got van and buanged zzzz X 1
2) cannot help out for SLC zzzz X 2
3) cause more inconvenience for SLC zzzz X 3
4) $$$ zzzz X 4

surprisingly none of the effects were that i cld have been injured or died... well guess i'm not in shock...

wadeva... first lose key, den lose headphones, and now this... i wonder how bad can this week get since sunday...

Exclusive Clicks

2008-08-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

Random post

2008-05-23T02:57:00.001+08:00

Can't sleep... perhaps a bit affected by moodiness of my friend's blog... haiz...

Suddenly feel tired and helpless... wad's happening to me ):

It's been long...

2008-04-14T20:00:00.002+08:00

Long since my last post... seems like many things have changed over this period of time... too many things...

I dun know whether it's becuz i've simply nothing to rant about or simply no time to rant about things... maybe a mix of both explains the inactivity here... for those who do not know this blog well, it's a place where i vent off my frustrations, concerns, dissatisfaction... I'm one who's never satisfied remember?

Too many things have changed... Things including the way i think about some people... certain events have certainly opened my drowsy eyes to the people around me... certain things have changed my perception of handling things... too many things have happened

Juz finished watching the 7PM show on chnl 8... The show title irks me somehow... Life made simple... How i wish life could be made simple... sometimes the simpler u make things to be... the easier it is that you get tricked and fall into traps... tat's life now... seems like overthinking and thinking of the worst case scenario is my form of protecting myself, of preparing myself of things to happen... which in most case fortunately did not turn out as i plan... life's full of surprises in that aspect i think...

i always like to think, what if i had done it this way, what if things had been done that way, what if the same things happen all over again, would i react the same or otherwise, how would circumstances have changed... maybe i just think too much...

Missed school today... coincidentally so did somebody... more ppl have visited my blog i've heard... many of whom did not bother to clarify things... which is not really my concern... i'll just assume u nvr read my blog... as for things who did clarify wif me but done so 2 months later... ask urself y dint u do it earlier... :) and for those who are thinking "shit i shld have asked"... i'm ok with u keeping your silence, i'll take it as i've never known u...

so why am i so bitter now? school's been ok, friend's been ok, dota's been fun, i've got my holidays planned out, accountancy is waiting for me... why i'm bitter... should have been becuz i've juz excluded certain people from my inner circle to the middle circle.. probably... not to say i dint gain anyone in my inner circle... for that i'm thankful...

Life made simple... if only that really could be done... i'm sorry for being emo, cause that's the real me... cannot accept too bad... it's prolly the other side of me that i dun show to other people... and it's only a small part of it...

My god 3's a killing spree, 4's a dominating

2008-03-08T16:24:00.003+08:00

dota terms... dunno nvm... no 4. oldies recall goes to... BBmak

Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you went away nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you now my love is true

This is where my heart belongs
Cos here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't

And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cos I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life?
Cos here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't

Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't

Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby
(Until you're back here baby)
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't

It was a sombre day

2008-03-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

Ok not gonna blog about the details of the sombre day i had yesterday... Some parts of it are too private...

Anywayz it all rose from the Career Services Talk... Maybe the problems are there already but i just refuse to rectify it... Takes time i guess... i shall perservere...

but still the thinking hasn't change... since RI days... the same reasoning why do i have to fight to be the best when i do my best and chances are i'll end up just middle ground... It's the feeling where you've been up there, seen the surroundings, and down there is actually much better sometimes... grrr stress

tat and something else... concoctive mix of depression... perhaps i'll never be able to pull myself out of the downward spiral... at least not in the near future... haiz...

i'm just depressed...

and ppl have asked me... so old alr, still play play play... what they do not know, is that playing lets me forget about what i'm thinking... it's like alcohol or glue with slightly better health effects...

1 day 1 new oldie.... it's reallie like tat..

2008-03-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

Bachelor Girl - Buses and Train

Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

I wanna do it again
Oh, felt so good

Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest thing.

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
I want to do it again

Troubled Waters

2008-03-04T17:31:00.005+08:00

Ok i admit... it's going down the good friends / just friends route... it juz feels like that... maybe the chance has passed and i dint even noticed it... or it was just not meant to be... like ppl say distancing yourself mite help sometimes but i feel right now, by distancing myself, i'm actually distancing from her and can't climb my way back... oh wells...

maybe i cld have a better chance if i stayed in the same hall... just maybe...

to quote one of her favourite line from jay chou's song :
"而我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情"

MA's coming up... and i'm nt exactly poised to study for it... unlike MS which was a thorough breeze... i hate being helpless... and i can't help being helpless myself in certain matters... like matters of the heart... forever green the term seems very tempting... too tempting

yet another oldie recovered from the little pockets of my memories...

2008-03-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

Dun blame me, I seriously dun know why for the past 2 weeks i keep recalling these songs from the 90s... very freaky... anyway enjoy

She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Once again I just can't get it straight
Wondering if wandering is my fate
But don't lose hope in me quite yet
'cause help must be on the way, any day

From my head to my heart
can't seem to find a way they're so far apart
It's not you, it's not your fault
You've got everything I could ever want
And you've always understood my intentions are good
and we've been so close from the start
but the furthest distance I've ever known is
From my head to my heart

I feel the distance standing here next to you
I don't want to keep you waiting, but I've been waiting too
Some day if I get there and you still want me too
we can see it through

From my head to my heart
can't seem to find a way they're so far apart
It's not you, it's not your fault
You've got everything I could ever want
And you've always understood my intentions are good
and we've been so close from the start
but the furthest distance I've ever known is
From my head to my heart

From my head to my heart
can't seem to find a way they're so far apart
it's not you, you've got everything I could ever want

From my head to my heart
can't seem to find a way they're so far apart
It's not you, it's not your fault
You've got everything I could ever want
And you've always understood my intentions are good
and we've been so close from the start
but the furthest distance I've ever known is
From my head to my heart
but the furthest distance I've ever known is
From my head to my heart

Marketing tutor is an absolute B*tch

2008-02-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

nuff said...

Taylor Swift - I'd Lie

2008-02-27T17:30:00.001+08:00

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
But I know all his favorite songs

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine

I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

He'd never tell you
But he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you
His favorite color's green
And he loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him...
if you ask me if I love him...
I'd lie

I would change all the he/him to she/her... haiz

B*witched... by them

2008-02-27T01:55:00.004+08:00

lol i know they're old... so am i :P

爱上周杰伦

2008-01-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

well e last 2 wks is like a jay chou revival wk for me... muz be due to that kbox session wif yl and nic... lol

周杰伦 - 我不配 (The actress in the MV is OMG CHIO LA... not to mention oversized shirt... :D)

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关於
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关於
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
(这已经不对)
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
( 我努力挽回)
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
(可是我忽略 wo 不要人陪)
Ho 这感觉已经不对
(这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解)
最后才了解
(一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累)
(你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴)
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

周杰伦 - 彩虹 (Most emo song of that album i think... omg i dint know wad the mtv was a bt until today... a bit like korean drama la ar... cancer and stuff :D... EMO!!!) (oh and the actress in the MV is CUTE... 单眼皮女生)

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着(睡得着)
你的身影这么近我却抱不到 (抱不到)
没有地球太阳还是会绕 (还是会)
没有理由我也能自己走 (能自己走)

你要离开我知道很简单 (知道很简单)
你说依赖是我们的阻碍 (给我们阻碍)
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP：
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单 (知道很简单)
你说依赖是我们的阻碍 (给我们阻碍)
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

It's amazing...

2008-01-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

How fast and how much ppl believe and misunderstand the meanings of words online... :D

2 posts in a row...

2008-01-23T18:01:00.000+08:00

This one's abt serious stuff... well..

quoting from a friend's post:
"Is love/relationship(s) a game? My answer was (and still is) a clear no; and the natural progression to that is.

Apparently, by playing the game, it supposedly enhances one’s chances of getting into a relationship. To me though (and also to Y Y), this relationship is not one built on a stable ground. By playing the game, the suitor is tailoring his/her image to suit the perceived “wants” of the courted, and if the suitor guesses these “wants” correctly, he/she gets the partner he/she desires. The suitor does not reveal his true self to the courted, and this goes on until they spend enough time together (or even get married) to find out about each other’s true selves.

Talking about true selves, let me digress a little and explain a little more by what I mean “true self”. The true self refers to the character and personality traits formed between birth through the formative years, up till Primary 6 (or 12 years of age). The traits formed during this period are almost unshakeable, and while most, if not all, traits seem to disappear as they grow older (and the surroundings change), they actually don’t. What happens is, each time they meet with a setback, or encounter something different that they are unable to reconcile with their “true self”, they board it up with a wall, either to prevent more hurt, or to blend in with the surroundings. Over the years, these walls grow and grow and grow, and they suddenly seem so different from their younger days. Which is not true, since strictly speaking, their outward appearance now is a mask.

Getting to know the “true self” of another is not very easy, especially if the walls are thick and many. Of course, if one catches the other in a vulnerable state, one might get lucky and actually get a glimpse of the “true self’ without much time and effort. On the other hand, most are not that lucky, and really, time and effort needs to be invested.

This is the reason why I do not believe in playing the game. Call me silly, old-fashioned, or idealistic, but this is something I really believe in: that the first step in getting into a relationship (or chasing your earmarked partner) is through being friends. Get to know the other person well; hang out with him/her, invest genuine and honest time in developing the friendship.

To me the ideal progression would be: Acquaintance -> Friends -> Good Friends -> Boy/Girl-friend. If the relationship eventually evolves to the last stage, I believe it is one built on a very strong and stable foundation, since both most likely have seen the “true self” of the other, and must have liked and be able to accept what they each saw in the other.

I fully understand the risks that meanwhile, the partner might get attached by those playing the game, or that it will stop at the “Good Friend” stage. I know that all too well, having personally gone through that before. Success rates are not guaranteed too, but if one is really looking for a long-term, stable relationship with a low potential of having an acrimonious break-up, then this is the route to take.

It’s one I’ve chosen. I’m a nice guy to everyone, regardless of gender; but sometimes, I go the extra mile for that special someone. Unfortunately, it’s never noticed, and such deeds are normally swept under the “Good/Very Good friend”category, which I, while slightly disappointed, wouldn’t lose too much sleep over; and if not, even taken for granted."

I would agree on some of the stuff... It makes some logical sense in that by playing the game, it's like a shortcut gamble... if ur lucky u'll find that your inner selves click... or else prepare to get ur heart broken... i agree if the foundation is nt stable the relationship is bound to fail...

but i've also seen cases where people hit off within a month and stay together forever... call it love at first sight or whatever u like... these things do happen... and the mentality of the world now is, yes i am willing to take this gamble, consequences later on... probably the reason why u say is true... i'm not saying i approve of playing the game... i'm saying there are many others who approve of playing the game... thus ppl like us who do not wish to play the game are left with a small pool of ppl of the other sex who do not wish to play the game to select from... and tat sux totally i tell u

and yes i so agree that sometimes when we do nice things for our so called "special one" and they get ignored or thrown into the bin called "good friends"... why is this so? probable reason is they dun view u as their "special one"... simple as that... becuz someone else is also doing nice things for him/her and the other person is higher up on the ladder...

which brings us to the ladder theory... how guys and girls rank the opposite sex on a ladder... although some of the parts sound like a sore loser who juz got ditched by their other half, some parts of the theory lay true in the modern world... it's the case of if i can get smth better in my opinion, why not... which is why players stand out more prominently that non players... all becuz they portray what the other party wants while you may only portray certain characteristics that they like, but not all of it...

so should we play the game or not to play the game... my stand is yes and no... in certain ways some things needs to be portrayed to get the other person's attention, or even just to move up the ladder, and by doing so it's hard not to alter some of our comfort circles... but if the transformation is too vast until u become a totally different person from you, i say dun waste your time on the person... it wun last... in conclusion? i think it's best u be a player to as small an extent as possible to get the other person... but never more than 50%... given modern world circumstances...

When i post, it's nothing good... trust me...

2008-01-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

Few things i wish to say... abt what i've seen today... well maybe right maybe wrong...

1. why is a bash, which is just supposed to be a normal event being publicised as a valentine's day bash??? no 1 the name... no 2 the giving of flowers today... the other publicity stunts before this was ok, robbery, wood running, loud hailing, giving out namecards/flyers... but flowers??? i mean when i ask ppl outside NUS "pls come for *bash" i get the response "why u guys hold a v day bash so early"... tat's e impression ppl are getting? mkting strategy? riding on another's good will in this case a special occasion's good will? well i can't say its ineffective... i'm just saying is it right?... economically yes... others? not to forget the skeptical faces and straight no thanx faces given by several unsporting public today... it's awkward to say the least... and not exactly all flowers were taken home for the record... so does it become a turn on (in terms of publicity) or a turn off? i leave tat to the staticians during the main event on saturday for that answer... after all the normal singaporean thinking wld be why shld u care... ur nt the publicity head, ur nt the org head... if they think it's ok, just do as you're told, do what they want... but sorrie i'm just nt the kind of person u can hoo haa arnd... if i see reason, i will help out... well the onli reason i see is becuz it raises awareness, but my full approval? nah... juz feels like some ji ko peh/despos giving out v day flowers to girls asking them to come on a mass date... ya tat's wad it looks like to those ppl who gave the weird looks...

2. someone said today that girls look for 安全感. and in some ways it can be seen when u reject e person and he kept on liking u for maybe a year? tat means he's sincerely in love wif u and u get 安全感... but hey come on someone else liked a girl for 5 years... on and off kinda stuff coz e girl juz doesn't reciprocate sometimes... so this theory fails in this aspect doesn't it... i dun know... i'm not like the love expert kinda stuff, i just listen to ppl's opinions and try to compile them... i mean true to certain extent that some girls dun fall for guys easily and they take some time to like someone... so confessing to them too early wld probably result in them shutting u out so that they dun lead u on... and by perservering sometimes it just results in more shutting out and relates to dislike... while others fall for guys easily and wow within a month of knowing each other they got attached... so what's the guideline? i guess it's knowing the other person well... but how well do u need to know the person to know when is the right timing? becuz before the timing no good, after the timing also no good... drag too long and ur thrown into the good friends onli bin or the irky stalker bin (like a particular someone who failed to confess when given the chance recently)... wow sounds very 烦 rite? little wonder singapore's birth rate is so low... after getting attached still have to think when's the right time to pop the important question and where... then still got when to have kids and stuff... i leave tat for later, i haven finish step 1 yet...

end of the day, i'm 烦ing somethings that doesn't reallie concern me... but tat's me i think too much... maybe... actually i think somethings that happened today helps me understand certain ppl better... i dun know... actually if u ask me now.. i still can't figure out what's the right time... or how long it wld take to fall for a person... which kinda complicates matters... well that's the hard part i guess... finding out whether the other person has fallen for u... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bored at home

2008-01-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

everytime i'm at home and have nothing to do... i start thinking about things... and often in a bad way... probably why i'm stuck to the comp most of e time at home... keep myself occupied so that i wun think of such stuff

but today... the thinking kinda overshadowed the gaming... prolly becuz of what has conspired over the past few months... or rather transpired... which ever one we're not particular over english here aren't we...

i start thinking about whether NUS biz was my right choice... as in certain stuff that happened in front of me, whether intentionally or unintentionally, is making me wonder, is this really the kind of company that i want? that i can fit in? that i truely wanna be...

and i start to think... what would happen if i had went to SMU or NTU instead... what if i decided nt to go uni and went into the working society... would i have met such ppl... would i have met some great friends that i have made the last few months...

and i wonder... if i had gone elsewhere... with a different setting, would i have been disappointed, depressed, mixed feelings, troubled feelings, etc etc that i have been having the last few days... it's making me crumble... it makes me feel being unable to see what's ahead of me and arnd me in my life... and yes it conjures suicidal thoughts... but to those concerned who read the previous line... no i've long convinced myself many yrs ago that i wld nvr commit suicide... no matter how hard life is, i'll let it end naturally... so if god wans me to go up there, he has to get a bus to knock me over... and thoroughly...

maybe it's juz becuz i think too much... or maybe i'm just a guy... who easily fall for girls who are close to him... or are nice to him... whatever it is... i dun reallie care... all i know is i'm troubled... and tat's all

rant post... as usual... my blog is my avenue to destress

2008-01-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

世界上最远的距离是我在你身旁，而你不知道我喜欢你。
世界上最难的事是我站在你面前，告诉你我喜欢你。
世界上最痛苦的事是我在你身边，而不能告诉你我喜欢你。
世界上最遗憾的事是我站在你面前，却没告诉你我喜欢你。

Relapse... wth

2007-12-28T02:41:00.000+08:00

had a relapse of chest cramp today... e last one was like 8 yrs ago and i tot it was way over alr... great stuff

went 2 gatherings today... 1. PRU 2. Crusades... well both was equally fun... haha still wondering where philip gets his cheapo books from haha...

well... nth much to blog abt... haha my hols are like tat... either go out meet wif friends or i wld be nua-ing at home... intellectual down time...

爱要怎么说出口 - 赵传

教我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说怎么说都是错

你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自己去生活试着找寻自我
别再为爱蹉跎
何必为爱蹉跎

只是爱要怎么说出口
爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流

第一次握你的手指间传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁

教我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做怎么做都是错

如果要我把心对你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做我受够了寂寞

只是爱要怎么说出口
爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流

第一次握你的手指间传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁

3.7... 3.7... 3.7...

2007-12-27T01:43:00.000+08:00

no here no there, wandering in no man's land... that's wad practically my CAP score is telling me... well hardly no surprise... half fuck effort gives half fuck results... nothing to regret, i reaped what i sowed...

but either case i dun see a point in letting others know how bad i feel about my results... particularly those who have scored lower than me and are in worse mood than i am right now... so to those particular ones still lamenting about their 4.4 and 4.3 cap scores... thanx dude! great job!

let's see how things go from here... after all u juz need a half fuck effort to get a double major these days... and u dun even need a degree to be a millionaire... yup that's how screwed up this world is... u may be at the top but u may not be the best...

after all winning isn't everything...

- A debt that all man pay... 5 letter word

in love with this song

2007-12-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

GAGA!!!

1 down 4 more to go

2007-11-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

BSP 1004 is over... finally but sadly also because it's the easiest subject haha... i'm blogging from NUS macs wif buncha classmates... shall continue later... when i sort out some mixed feelings... haha

It's the same thing nearly 3 years before

2007-11-11T03:14:00.001+08:00

fuck go away.......... go away........... go away.............. go away.........................

ARGH

2007-11-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

1st lesson since the last post and already 2 goals not achieved...

great start for change

anyway the 2 were not being late for lessons and finishing tutorials on time... GRRRR

at econs tutorial now... :P

Too fast too fast.... what was i thinking...

2007-11-03T03:44:00.000+08:00

after like 5 straight hours of soul searching... ok i admit i went to play dota for a while in btwn but was still soul searching in e mean time too... i gave a lot of though t into what i've done the past 2 months... and i realise i was freaking dumb...

the topic summarizes part of my woes... nt gonna comment abt it here but those ppl who know shld know wad it means...

another part wld be my sleeping habits... as in can see i'm still online at 3:45am... no good no good even though tml's sat and no school...

so i'm hoping to achieve the following... it's not an exhaustive list... but practically what i can think of now...

Sleeping curfew: 1am latest... maybe hard but i'll try my very best
Finish up tutorials: will do
Catch up on lost lectures: have to do
Not be late for classes: this one reallie hard to achieve... haven reallie 100% been early b4
Not skip any lessons: lol i know this is kinda late in the sem but hey... nothing's later than it's over rite??

as for somebody... i'm sorry that i've tried to push us too fast... u were right i guess haha... but we're still friends right?

P.S. add one more to the goals... be more mature... 45% NOT ENOUGH... :S

Troubled Waters

2007-10-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

Long time since i last updated... haha my usual source of rantings has come to use again...

well not to say that the last 2 wks or so had been good... so good that i dint need to blog any troubles... but rather that the last 2 weeks have been so busy that i dun reallie have the time to blog...

anywayz i'll go against e norm when i blog, this time i'll go by more recent events 1st... well nt many know abt this but my 2nd uncle (maternal side)'s family has ran into some troubles/disputes again... well i dun wanna tok too much abt this to anyone particularly also becuz i'm not one of e involved parties, mainly juz a observer in the whole issue... however what... grrr screw english...

我为他感到很不值，他为孩子付出了这么多，现在他有病却没有人肯帮忙他负担家里的责任。就拿煮饭来讲，以前他没病可以三餐住给他们吃，现在有病了要休息却没有人肯担其这个责任。对他可能对其中一个孩子偏心，拜托他还是你老爸你懂吗。那个在享受的就不要讲了，以他的性格要他照顾老爸是不可能的，自己的孩子放学, 自己白天没做工也不要去接,为了什么？省工车费？要自己的老爸去接孩子就算了，家里水电费不用付，伙食费也不用付，外面租出去的房子所赚来的钱也是自己收，你还埋怨老爸给你得不多？你别忘了你还有六个兄弟姐妹，你埋怨他们岂不是可以请律师说老爸虐待他们了？

你们家里有钱，却自己不去争取机会，你老爸能养你一辈子吗。我自己的老爸不能给我大房子住给我大汽车坐，我也不埋怨他，因为我知道他已劲力了。以前不懂事，看别人有自己没有会怨这可怨那个，现在想起来还有点幼稚。你们比我大上至少有十五岁吧，还不知羞耻？今天你老爸开紧急会议，你们有几个去？他对你们的失望，你们有谁知道。医药报告都还没出来，自己今天就已经在交待自己的后事了。可见他已经绝望了。

我也不想插手，只能在这里怨天对我二舅不公平。插手了反而变成他们的罪人，一个个心计这么重，又不肯坦诚坐下来调节，兜着圆圈吃不消。

when things become a hi bye thing within a family, it's reallie reallie reallie v sad... and this is nt a one off case, it's been like this for years and years and years... dun they get sick of the same problem again and again and again...

back to myself... think i'm getting my game addiction back again... particularly bad for this period whereby i have a OM term paper to submit nxt week and MNO video project also... haven even start writing the discussion review properly... MNO video subtitling also haven done... my priorities are all wrong again... argh... i think i need to lock away e wc3 disk... now i know why parents do tat in the past...

this song keeps recurring in my head: 王菲's 我愿意... esp e first line: 思恋是一种很选的东西...

FNA mid term

2007-10-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

well the results are out... i'm satisfied with my results in that i knew i already got 2 mistakes in the test... so 23/25 perfectly fits my picture...

so why am i still sad??? i dunno... maybe because of someone else's results... i guess...

well someone got 22 and told me he's disappointed.. oO ur above average dude...

gg win

anywayz regarding e Odex issue... now awaiting re appeal... bahx have to scan so many things...

FTT

2007-10-01T08:02:00.001+08:00

well today marks the end of recess wk and the start of exams week... and wad's best to kick off everything with a 9am test... well dun worry it's not an NUS exam... it's my Final Theory Test for driving... well abt 1 hr time's time more and i'm totally ill prepared... well see how it goes alr... hope for the best man... ciaoz

Troubled feelings...

2007-09-21T02:10:00.000+08:00

well just talked to someone about something... i guess he's rite... so in summary..

戴爱玲 - 对的人

你问在我心中
是否还苦恼
那次受伤
否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照
我一切都好
一个人不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角

那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到
与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现

能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱
海阔天高
喔---耶----

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现

no wonder this song came back to me a few weeks ago...

Updates!

2007-09-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

Wow ok finally a breather period before today's dinner... well so far everyday is literally spent chasing tutorials, chasing bus (cars for the song if u wan)and chasing people... ok not exactly the literal meaning of chasing girls (i'm concentrating on studying remember?) but ya trying to find GROUP MEMBERS for the much much much needed GROUP DISCUSSIONS for the much much much dreaded GROUP ASSIGNMENTS... 20% is like woot 2 points of your cap... coz literally 20 marks out of 100 = 4 grades difference, and 4 grades difference translates to 2 point of your cap... well done we love school...

well sarcasm aside, group discussions had been cool coz i reallie got to know a lot of my classmates! haha and u know why? coz basically i got different people for EACH module group assignment although like 80% of them are from class group C... the remaining 20% comes from other fac so ya :D interesting way to network...

speaking of networking, it seems that the 3 camps + o wk + class reallie opened up my social circle to a great extent... i mean ok la in RI my whole batch knew the whole batch quite well but den most of us seldom interacted with other batches... in NUS is like we know ppl from our seniors, 2 yrs our seniors, other faculties, and for some other universities... tat's not accounting for the people we know from JC, Sec sch and pri sch... I guess right from the start god wanted me to know a lot more people... being the only VJ guy in my FOC grp, 1 of the 3 VJ guys in FOC camp (nt to mention lack of RI ppl also), Sports camp whereby i'm like one of e rare ones again, UC if not for bizad ppl i'll be another solo kia unknown to everyone before that... i guess all was planned out the way it is... get to know more ppl... oh do i need to mention again i knew nobody from class C prior to entering the class for tutorial?

now RANTING aside... haha i found out that there's so many ways to get to NUS, albeit (hey this is a new word i learnt today!) all of them takes like 1 hour plus... lol here's some of the routes i've taken

Bus 10,30,143,188 to vivo, train to eunos, bus 63 to home -> 1 hr 15 mins average but generally a lot of the timings miss each other so i have to wait quite a while

Bus 30 to eunos, 63 back home -> 1 hr 30 mins thanks to ECP jam... wth

Bus 96 to Clementi, train to eunos, bus 63 home -> 1 hour 25 mins thanx to bus 96 jam... and bubble tea at clementi :P

Bus 10 from KR terminal to vivo, train to eunos, bus 63 to home -> 1 hr 30 mins

well tat's e route's i've tried... here's some more alternatives

bus 51 straight back -> guessing 2 hours
bus 51 to queenstown, train to eunos, bus 63 back -> guessing 1 hr 40 mins
bus 10 to city hall / raffles place, train to eunos, bus 63 back -> guessing 1 hr 20 to 1 hr 45 mins
bus 95 to buona vista, train to eunos, bus 63 back -> guessing around 1 hr 30
bus 151 to hougang, hougang bus to home -> no bloody idea

well some ideas but not exhaustive... haha

kk back to rushing tutorials... got OM to go thru tml and fna discussion as well

JIAYOU PPL.. RECESS WEEK'S COMING... DUN THINK OF THE MID TERM EXAMS AND TERM PAPERS AND ASSIGNMENTS DUE AFTER THAT... JUST THINK OF RECESS WEEK!!!

haha i'm trying to be optimistic... dun kill me... :P

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

2007-08-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

haha dun ask me y i'm a sucker when it comes to early 2000s music...

anyway i think i recall someone told me her cca b4 and i stupidly asked her againz some days later... argh... shucks... i need more hard disk space in my head...

juz recalled smth someone wanted to ask...

2007-08-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

ya basically someone wanted to ask if i liked someone else i think yesterday... now tat i recall... sorrie arh i'm a goldfish remember? 3 second memory onli... :P

anywayz i juz tot abt it, e answer's gonna be no. coz basically i dun wan to get attached now... studies is one, the right person is another... somehow i haven reallie met a person who wld blow me off my feet yet... so haha... singlehood looks better now... single and available but not looking... <--- think can qualify as it's complicated?? haha complex logic nvm...

still comtemplating on webcast or school... GRRRR

Change what you cannot accept, Accept what you cannot change

2007-08-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

lol old saying... wonder why it took so long for me to realise this logic...

anyway the line came from some hongkong drama series so time ago... hmmmz in a way it's like saying try ur best to change what you cannot accept, if nt give up and accept the things you cannot accept... haha

well i guess i juz gave up on 3 things... nt gonna say what here... haiz... hope things work out bahx... yawnz

and odex juz got pwned by pacnet... GG

Dun expect too many happons (measure of happiness) in this post

2007-08-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

great... just about to start blogging when i realised i agreed to go to 2 birthdays this sat... SHIT... hang on...

ok misunderstanding... maybe i'm just wired too uptight these days... easily provoked easily stressed equally easily pissed...

anywayz starting from where i left off... Rag day... learnt some not so nice things about rag on that day itself... well but in the end business still won... so i guess all is well? for now i guess... and then followed by quite a failed outing at mind cafe... well i guess 16 ppl is juz too many for a place designed for games 2-8... :P

then there was the 1st wk of lectures... well all i can say is the lectures were ultra boring... but nonetheless some stuff were quite impt so no choice but to sit thru e bore... well to the extent that i actually finished off a professional class sudoku on my phone during FNA lect :P...

discovered that this 2 wks so far been staying back in school walking arnd aimlessly or camping in comp lab to print notes... guess tat's wad happens when u get 2 hr lectures EACH day of the wk... bahx... felt like i'm juz trying to tag along wif certain grps of ppl... in a way i feel bad coz like everyone's supposed to have a life of their own and i'm juz like tagging along other ppl's lives... maybe i'm thinking too much here also...

congrats to philip and elijah and june and ingrid for making it to the final round of pageant... yay u've done crusaders proud :P... and u guys reallie look good in those model shots haha

been going arnd scouting for textbooks and used textbooks... but to no avail... seems like a lot of the text have to buy new ones coz there's juz insufficient old textbooks for our large cohort... brrrrrr... thinking of the resale situation nxt sema and nxt yr alr... too much supply too lil demand... great... probably gonna go get e textbooks by tml... nt bothering to wait alr...

then still some matters close to the heart i have yet to resolve... in fact i dun think i am still mature enough to handle it... maybe someone was rite... 23 is the number... what i'm sore about is why... in fact i realised there's just too many things i dun bother to go correct or fix alr... juz becoming sore has become like my excuse for it... apathetic... maybe... haha irony with the previous post... or is it that i'm juz sore of failing... probably... certain things just dint turn out the way i wan them to be... changing of class included since like i took an initiative to do something... yet nothing pays off these days... maybe these years... god i still can remember the times in lower secondary when i'm just optimistic about everything... and so far these few years life has never failed to show me i'm so wrong about it... tough life? maybe... which is why i tend to go back into my shell when things go wrong... a battle hardened shell reinforced over years of bad luck and troubles... well at least suicidal tots were a thing of the past... at least it taught me to treasure any good happenings coz they are just so rare...

oh a lighter note... check this out..

Tired & not apathetic...

2007-08-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

it's late, shld be resting esp since i dint sleep much e last few days due to chalet and stuff... anywayz juz wld like to say tat i still do not carry myself well when i'm tired and stuff... so apologies to anyone who felt insulted, annoyed by my actions... nitez

I need to know all about you

2007-08-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

Bic Runga - Sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

Emo-litez 2

2007-08-11T03:50:00.000+08:00

lol paiseh arh... if anyone's reading this... give u ppl 2 emo songs from bon jovi... dunno why at this hour i'll think of this kinda songs la... it juz comes to mind...

Bon Jovi - All About Lovin' You (Good song to sing to your girlfriend if you've got one :D)

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you
All about lovin' you

Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me (Good for JUST attached couples... serious!)

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Oh pls dun mistake me... i dint juz get hitched or smth like tat... maybe juz a lil smitten... tat's all... it's a secret P.S. hehe well at least now i know why e heck i'm so emo these days... :P

Emo-litez

2007-08-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

lol i realise i have a tendency to blog once a week...

anywayz i'm still in nearly the same mood the whole week... hope i dint offend anyone or cause any wrong ideas along the way... if so i sincerely apologise...

nt gonna go into details about o week la... the events were too boring to say the least... but i definitely met a bunch of nice ppl for my og... haha anywayz yesterday was dean's evening which sort of marks the end of orientation program for biz... went walawala and ktv aft tat wif lin-note ppl aft tat for chill out until e nxt morning... haha

comp's got some virus... been trying to clear up e whole day... think it's much better now... grrr

anywayz tml gonna settle tuition grant, go driving, get prezzie and perhaps head down to rag at nite and possibly staying over? idk... gonna ask philip wad's e program like tml... haha... anywayz saturday's rag... NUS will be at the padang!!! come and support :P

ok back to emo-ing...

苏惠伦 - 不想想太多

2007-08-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

haha like 1 song name juz sums up my feelings now... i think... although i think the song lyrics itself mite apply several yrs ago... haha 1 whole bz O wk as expected... no time to emo den now den emo LOL... damn smart...

school's starting soon lo... somehow it doesn't feel the same like starting jc nor sec school... cld it be becuz we're more mature? or does it juz doesn't feel the same rigidity of education... or maybe i'm juz bored of doing orientation stuff... i dun know... i dun see where things are going and it's scary... especially when this is the time that decides your own future... if someone were to ask me do u see yourself as a accountant 10 yrs down the road... my answer is i'm not sure... and it's not what i planned for it to be... the answer should be YES I'M damn @#*@!(# sure becuz that shld be what it shld be...

oh and speaking of sick of doing orientation stuff... to think that i'm gonna transfer into a class where i dun know anyone... maybe onli 1 wilson but nobody else... the prospect of nt seeing familiar faces for time to come... yrs to come since accountancy modules are pre allocated for 3 yrs... imagining the friendships i've formed the last 1 month plus is going to slowly fade becuz of different tutorial groups and lecture groups... becuz we dun see each other... it scares me... i'm human after all... we're meant to be community organisms, not solo beings...

or perhaps i think too much... like how geps are trained... overthink overdo overwrong....

i wan to k box... sob sob... singing can relief stress... can relief emo....

1 wk... bz wk...

2007-07-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

today's a brief respite b4 another crazy wk and a half nxt... haha

so where did i stop... uniform party... haha supposed to meet in the afternoon after QET den go marina bay to fly kite/sing song/no mahjong thanx... anywayz it ended up the QET guys (aka me elijah andie) got mass pungsehed by e rest who ended up coming after 4pm... great... so wad do guys do when they got 1pm all the way to 4pm to burn... WE WENT SHOPPING... haha so unclassic but it's ok... they bought stuff... i went to look at stuff rofl... den we met up wif most of e girls at marina square and changed to our secondary school/vj uniforms... and the guys purposely dint change 1st and videoed e girls after they change (much as they wanted to... the girls toilet was out of bounds :P) and their reaction haha... punk'ed :P anyway i rushed back soon after tat... dint change, my mum finally dug out my vj uniform after her work so i decided to go back and grab it instead of wearing the vj PE attire... it's like how odd can walking arnd town in shorts... onli philip can stand that... zzz anyway we ate at changing appetites, the fish there is omg bad in terms of comparison wif other resturants <--- tat's a word of advice by ME and val... but their calamari was surprisingly nice... anywayz after that we went to the rooftop of marina and play games... haha and we brought our sports camp forfeits into the game lol! i got photo of elijah and andie kissing somebody.. hahaha cannot disclose who i think will get e person into trouble.. haven upload to my comp yet e photos... patiently wait la hor...

den sentosa dry run... haha SUPER RAINY DAY... no sun at all lor... but ok la afternoon it stopped raining alr... we went late... haha i woke up late :P oops... by e time we reach there they alr split into grps play a few games alr... but den i see everyone like quite the sianed by e rain haha... anywayz we crusaders went there, totally changed the games and everything la... we are how happening can lol... i think we're e onli freshies who go and dunk each other throw water bombs at each other chase UP and DOWN the whole palawan beach... lol cannot blame us... mother dai4 huai4 one... aka edvin :P hehe

i'm so stoned... i need to check wad happened e last wk... argh...

oh monday was union camp's harry porter screening... lol 2 bucks to watch e movie... although i dint quite catch e ending... heard from those who read e book say the movie makers cut a lot from e story... well for a harry idiot like me... haha dunno a thing but it made me wanna go read e other stories in front lol... so e movie is successful in this sense i guess... aft movie was badminton wif yl and nic... damn long nvr go... aft badminton was supper wif crusaders... lol bz day huh... oh ya prior to e movie got pirates outing also... although like onli 10 ppl showed up i think... or was it 8 haha... usual circle of trust and bitching lol... went some jap resturant in marina square to eat... can't quite remember e name although i dun like e dry soba i had :X... crusades outing went eMax at cine watch movie... although i like missed more than 3/4 of e show... it was Zoolander anyway... den another bitching/bonding/sharing session...

as u can see late nites diminish ur memory... hang on...

i rmb wed go andie's house play mahjong wif 2 of his female friends... den won 10 bucks... lol...

ARGH wad happened on tue and thurs... i think tues was rest day dint go out... thurs had driving... shit shit shit *bang head*

nvm... give up... friday was ken's house... ken invite us to eat his own cooked food... mostly western, pasta soup tat kind... was good although like e nxt day i had quite a strange rumbling stomach (which means i ate smth wrong lol) but e fish was real good... ate quite a lot i think although i think all of us ate a lot haha... den aft dinner was mj and ps2 thru e whole nite until e nxt day lol... all 11 of us i think stayed over except kaijin who left halfway in e nite... den e nxt day sat was O wk briefing... 0 sleep and still can go attend briefing at 12pm... i dunno how e toot i survived e trip to NUS... nor the trip back home to bathe change and go out again to EUNOS MRT... and i WALKED THERE... briefing lasted until 3 plus... lucky i went or else i wld be totally clueless abt wad's happening in O wk... at least it cleared most of my questions... den they had e trial run for e last game but my o wk og councillors skipped tat to discuss whether we wan to take care of double degree og... coz they catered for 1 double degree og but ended up having 3... so they needed single degree ppl to take care of em juz for o wk... but we decided nt to la... quite tough to join another og aft o wk also for class...

which comes to e email i juz received... it appears... appears is the word... tat the o wk og mite nt be our class... what they've sent out is the CLASS grpings to the various OGLs... but den since O wk og are gonna be 20 each out of the 30 ppl in each class, they mite need to shuffle ppl arnd for those overwhelming response and nt so overwhelming response grps... hope my class is enthu... nt over enthu either, dun wanna lose peeps to other ogs also... bahx... balance... hard to achieve... good god...

anywayz supposed to be sleeping alr... slpt at 3am last nite can u believe it... 39 hrs w/o sleep... tat's a record... woke up at 4pm... doubt it will ever clear my sleep debt anyway... omg i'm gonna die young haha... lol choi touch wood (bang table)

kk i think tat's abt all le... too tired to bitch abt anything... or even think abt anything... haha my mind's a blank... like this -->

Old question...

2007-07-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

i dunno why but this question keeps coming up on my mind... do we create times or do times create us... old question i believe i've mentioned b4...

anywayz linkin park's new album is awesome... aka it's beyond good ok... haha it's bringing me back to english music... haven like touched english music since like altar bridge's open your eyes... go figure how long tat is... e sad part for chinese music is that i dunno why but i can't seem to find 1 whole album enjoyable from 1 single artist... it's always 1/2/3 songs nice e rest are :S... linkin park's one is like woah... i like every single song...

haha dunno why i'm blogging now... supposed to be sleeping resting for tml's sentosa dry run...

oh ya i've heard abt e new system for our batch... totally crap... o wk details also out... partially i guess... nth is tied down... but equally crap anyway...

anywayz yesterday's uniform party was fun... LOL although the picnic idea was totally scrapped in e end due to mass pung seh-ing... maybe i'll blog abt it tml along wif sentosa bah... see how.. :P

Sports camp and Union Camp (warning: EXTRA LONG POST)

2007-07-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

ok first u may be wondering why i dint update sports camp immediately... it's becuz i was simply too tired k... 6 days 5 nights... hiong sia...

kk sports camp 1st... although i think my memory of e camp is nt very clear of wad happened la... prolly wun be able to recollect as much as biz camp... basically 1st day right aft we check into MPSH 2 which is our gathering point and sleeping are at nite, was pool games... came as quite a shock... 1st day pool games alr, quite hiong sia... damn paiseh to take out shirt also... 我有自知之明的 ok... anyway they had pool station games and in particular at 2 stations they let u try out 1. scuba diving 2. surfboard... scuba diving was damn fun i tell u... breathing in pure oxygen was shiok and purely juz submerging urself underwater over a long time is juz woot... but e sad part was tat we swam (flippers and all... and wif flippers u can swim damn fast la...) to the halfway point, my air tank's dunno wad ring (i forgot... :D) came loose and air started come out from my tank itself... ya i dint even realise i wasn't taking in much air... so they hauled e tank off me and i had to swim e way back normally... SIANZ... e other one was surfboard but nt e type u see ppl use on tv for those surfing one... basically it's juz a long board where u can lie on and paddle using ur hands... e station was to race wif another og see who can finish e rounds faster... e other stations basically are juz normal games la... 1 was to dive under e water find a particular set of mahjong tiles... another one was 1 person jump into e water there wld be 2 ppl at e side wif mugs on stick trying to collect as much splash as possible... 3rd one was to paddle on float and use ur hands to paddle, keep balance and fight for a ball den throw it to ur teamate holding a pail at the poolside...

aft pool games.. i can't remember shit... think was martial arts display... or was it on e 2nd nite.. can't remember... i remember 1st nite we had our sp session... basically their sp session was that u get to talk to 4 different ppl... den at the end of e session pick who's ur 1st choice 2nd choice 3rd choice blah and they pair u up respectively... i heard from some they got their 4th choice... it's either the councillors sabo or they are reallie damn suay all pick e same person as 1st choice den e person pick him as 4th choice la... for me was a major cock up... coz my grp of guys gave our choices to e councillor... and e councillor disappeared... like totally disappeared... so we totally have no idea who we are paired wif... den somemore they ask us to write letter to our sp... writing to invisible friend was nvr more fun...

anyway 2nd day i think it was station games and introduction to the various sports grps in NUS... if i'm nt wrong we had floorball archery touch rugby handball canoe polo... we onli tried floorball and touch rug b4 it started raining... den they cut all others except floorball and archery so we got to try archery onli aft tat... archery felt so different even for an air rifler... hmmmz

3rd day was fun... Sentosa... we had station games lined up for the morning and afternoon... i fell sick that day, actually was e day b4... fever so i missed out an hour of the afternoon napping away trying to recover... basically we had the dodge ball game we had during biz camp, but this time there were like 10 balls lined up in e middle and e teams had to run to e balls to snatch and throw... total mayhem imo... biz one was more organised... den they had other stations where they made u dip ur head into flour/egg/dunno what other shit they throw inside mixed in water (i'm guessing sea water) and find stuff like grapes lime cherry tomatoes... den they also have joustling in e water where the guy carrys the girl on his shoulders and e girl is supposed to flip off the other team's girl's cap... we lost tat one and had to do forfeit... i tell u this station has the most outrageous forfeits... outrageous as in we had to go to e deep waters and take off our shorts and swing it in e air cowboy style... and later our underwear on our head for extra points... outrageous enough??? tat's sports camp for u...

after everything in e evening was something like a relay race... basically e 12 ogs are split into 4 houses, 3 og per house, so amongst ur house u are split up btwn 20 stations each station has a task u have to complete b4 the nxt station can proceed on... den e whole relay race is split btwn 2 grps... e 1st grp will do e 1st 10 stations while e 2nd grp starts building a SOLID sandcastle spelling out SC'07 den when e 1st grp finishes both grps will switch over and e 2nd grp will proceed wif their tasks... we dint exactly win e relay... quite messy at the end when everyone was running to the sandcastle area (the whole race took up a whole stretch of e beach) but i dare to say BAI LIAN JIAO HAD THE BEST SANDCASTLE UP OK!!! oh btw my og grp is called xiao bai and my house is bai lian jiao... e theme is secret societies ok... dun laugh... oh e other 2 ogs are called ah lian and lau jiao... super win names...

sentosa nite was fright nite... i think this was e time i worsen to catch a cold... basically we were all stuck in a holding area, air con and all and they played movies for us to watch while waiting la... i ended up being one of e last few couples as they selected randomly.. call it bad luck... anyway they were running out of time so they decided to let 2 couples go at one time... and guess who was e other couple... kian and his sp... damn win... oh ya we're paired up as our sp couples... to say it was scary... well nt very la... biz one was worse... but the setting did make e event look scary.. it was some abandoned bungalow in sentosa... i believe i've been there b4 during one of my pri school camps i think... coz i remember e waiting area at the end of the trail... i remember tat 2 rows of old housing... anywayz back to fright nite... ok la my sp was super afraid coz tat's her 1st fright nite la basically... they dun reallie aim e guys much... most of e boos and scares are aimed at the girls haha... including locking e girl up in one of e rooms... well in e end they made me sort of like go and rescue her la... lol my sp's scream was quite loud... i think her first one at the toilet even the holding area can hear her haha... and she was clinging on to either my arm or my bag most of the time... ok la quite the norm for girl alr... which made me quite impressed wif my biz fright nite sp leh... she onli screamed once la and it's like we were e 1st couple in... hmmmz...

4th day was amazing race... arnd singapore... went to quite interesting places... let me try to recall e 1st stop was raffles hall i think... play pool... NUS has a pool/snooker club... mite wan to join tat haha... den still got rock wall at some place can't remember where alr... i remember going to snow city nxt... we went in wif e jacket and shorts... LOL siao one... but den it wasn't reallie cold for e legs la... went to CDANS for air rifle... LOL... then nxt stop DHL balloon in bugis... 2 ppl in OG supposed to go up e balloon and e rest of e og are supposed to make out a number below to show to the 2 ppl...

our last chk point was east coast macs... YES!! finally east territory... we reached there at 10... 1130 marks the start of nite cycling... my 1st nite cycling ok although i think the rest all most prob tot i went for nite cycling a lot... well i juz like cycling la... dun ask me why... anyway we went from east coast all e way to e end and went north to kallang/geylang... eat tou huei... (we cheated on this station... we're supposed to go all e way to kallang mrt b4 going arnd back to the shop) den go to suntec k box... sing 2 songs... basically each teams have a map and a list of stations... the stations are all arnd city area but each team have a specific starting and ending station so basically the other stations u can go in any order... we had the touhuei one as our starting station (god bless it's e most out of reach one) and suntec is a must go b4 3am station coz k box closes at 3... so i muz say our grp is damn heng la... aft suntec we went supreme court.. down there take photo fill in some questions den went ROM... take photo again, this time is 1 guy and 1 girl pair up from ur og and take photo on e love seat/bench/wadeva... everyone from e og muz take... this was easy coz we paired up 1 guy wif 1 girl b4 everything... basically to look aft e girls la... see our guys so nice rite... den aft ROM we went clarke quay area where e stamford raffles statue is (god bless it aint e one in RI)... down there we had to recite to the station master the MALAY version of the words engraved on the statue... another stroke of luck... our OGL is a malaysian and knows malay... we did it in one try... although quite hard coz they made us sing the national anthem b4 reciting out the thing... oh ya in case ur wondering... we got 14 ppl so like each memorize abt 5 words like tat... ya e message was kinda long... after clarke quay was esplanade... charades, and i'm proud to say (again) that our OG got all the questions... :P the most tough one was "Alternating between wanting to shit and not wanting to shit" most of e grp dint get e word alternating... haha pro rite...

den after everything we cycled back to east coast park and slept at costa sands ball room (after wash up and everything)... reached abt 4 plus... by e time i slept was like 5... e girls all dint sleep e queue for bathing was so long by e time they came back e ballroom was packed so they sort of like sat outside at e sofa area until breakfast... quite jialat...

nxt morning was amazing race part 2... cable ski 1st stop, basically 6 ppl in e og get to try it... den each person is given a letter to shout to e rest of e og waiting at e other end of e lagoon... our 1st person slipped b4 he even moved out... damn funny but e other 5 made it to our section w/o problems la... nxt station was cineleisure... dirt bike... onli 2 ppl got to try it but basically it was quite fun... i think it's open to public also... SAF yacht club for banana boat... damn funny i sat e one tat cannot capsize easily one... so we had to capsize ourselves by all leaning to one side when e boat is making e sharp turn... took us 2 tries to make it happen but it was damn shiok... another funny thing was that the first person on the boat ended up rite at the back... i think she bumped thru all of us coz i remember colliding wif someone... after that was confidence jump from 5m at queenstown diving pool... almost same like jetty jump in OBS... but still i freaked out on the 1st try coz i wasn't reallie steping on the edge b4 i wanted to jump... bahx damn maluating... e 5th nite was clubbing... at NUS guild house... e place seriously sux... it's too narrow too long and juz too small... had a few drinks den i went back to rest liao...

last day of camp... mass game... basically they had a 4 way tug of war btwn e houses and a game of pushball... pushball is juz 1 huge beach ball den e teams are supposed to push e ball towards their house pass the boundary of the playing area to win... we were close but den lost out to another house at e end... i'll juz say our og bonded very late into the camp... bahx maybe becuz e activities were juz a bit too attention demanding...

union camp... hmmm to say union camp was boring was an understatement... esp after experience 2 fantastic camps before this... 1st day was easily passed thru station games spanning the whole of NUS... which was alr done in biz camp... i sort of taken note that our grp is mostly made up of laid back ppl... nt exactly e enthu type of ogs u'll see in sports camp, competitive and everything so we dint exactly rush thru e stations... heard e 1st grp made 14/15 stations... impressive since our grp onli managed like 7... oO e nite was skit... we had like 2 hrs to prepare for a skit which they dint state e time limit... BAD MOVE!!! everyone took their own sweet time to perform in e end... and most ppl stopped watching like halfway thru e 1st skit alr... and e whole thing lasted a grueling 3 hrs i think... aft tat was sp nite where we met up wif our sps for e 1st time... ok la although i heard our sp grp's guys are like (to quote) disgusting, horny, pervertic, wadeva negative adjectives...

2nd day was pool games which is nt exactly pool games... it's like 3 stations 1 which e guys are blindfolded and each has a balloon on his right arm... so it's like blind "step on the balloons" in the baby pool... another was like chain scissors paper stone kinda game... last one was pass the water thingy... of which 2/3 are on land (pool games ya?)... last mass game became another skit session... each og given an item to advertise... :S

well i think e onli thing memorable abt union camp was fright nite... they had 9 stations arnd NUS... rather big scale (union wad..) the stations aint particularly scary but very surprising... some may be wondering what i mean by that... by scary i meant frightening which means the literal scary... surprising i meant by sudden maybe unexpected appearances of objects or ppl... so basically they dun scare u but rather surprise u... i wld say i was quited surprised at certain parts esp the parts when u tot it's the end alr... haha my partner got scared until she cried on the 2nd station so tat station was cut halfway... nt tat i wld say it's a pity cuz wadeva happens, partner comes 1st... i dun mind missing half the thing to ensure she's fine la... although she admited she felt quite bad... so if ur reading this lishan... IT'S OK! :D

anyway i broke camp for 1 day e nxt day to go home grab cough medicine and some much needed rest... well i actually wrote my sp reply e nite b4 aft i came back from fright nite... but den u see i woke up at 7... tot e gathering time was 830... tot better and decided to slp a while more... and slpt all e way until 1230... great... thus i missed e chance to pass my sp reply to my og mates... anywayz 3rd day they had sentosa and mass dance... from wad i heard i dint miss much..

4th day was war games... station games actually wif a mass water bombing session at the end... onli the water bombing was enjoyable... i think it was steven that gave me one stinging one on the right side of e face and half a deaf ear... *ouch* we're all drenched la basically at e end... lol den wash up and it was off to Double O... sp were revealed on the bus trip there and it happened tat my sp went off from camp alr... ok la a bit disappointed but den on the brighter side, i was quite ok wif it coz i've been thru this sp thingy like twice... i rather it happen to me than some other ppl who haven played the sp game b4... anywayz i got chocolates from my sp... which i tried v hard to finish coz i dowan to hold e thing and walk arnd in double O... haha sore throat and all... pageant wasn't particularly exciting, was watching onli to cheer andie elijah and our grp's pageant mates jesper and candice on... elijah, ur alwayz pageant king in our hearts ok... although u dint win on this one (the judges eyes stuck stamp)

after that was clubbing until 2am... went off wif crusaders to makan 1st b4 going back... danced a while until 12am den they changed to house music... so in the end they decided to go to the bar downstairs which was still playing r&b... i gave up halfway coz i was both sick and a lil tipsy la... wanted to join back pirates but they were too far away and coming back from supper alr so i juz sat arnd... den got this guy nt v far away from where i sat who kept on scolding vulgarities and sobbing over the phone... complex place... definitely imo... prolly why i hate clubbing also... anywayz our og met up and we went back NUS... after wash up most of our OG gathered on the rooftop to "bitch"... it felt more like a tok cock session... actually imo tok cock sessions shld nt be too big... or else sure got ppl get left out... anyway a lot of ppl gathered then they decided to play truth or truth using 终极密码. nothing too exciting... by e time 4 plus onli like me jesper xingyan steven (yr 3 councillor who i dunno e name... damn sad) janice michelle and we played stock market, something like mrt game but wif food instead of mrt stations, indian poker... blah blah... all e way dint sleep...

anyway nxt morning was prize presentation, mass handshake session and it kinda sums up union camp... ok la union camp was like the most boring, chui, weird ppl met camp for me... i'm nt alone in this comment i guess haha...

anywayz stoning a bit now... time to bathe... had a nice long chat wif my union mates in e afternoon lol... piRAtes crusaders 小白兔!!!

Upcoming sports camp...

2007-06-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

wah the last week was havoc sia...

haha ou og also quite on, the whole week meet up on monday wednesday friday... monday was og dinner, best lor... quote from edvin "eh u all go back still nvr wash your feet is it, y we still so unlucky arh" basically we wanted to go vilage in heeren to eat... but den suay suay renovating, go swensons no space need to wait 1/2 hr, go hard rock also the same, in the end we settled for california pizza... but damn win la down there... someone actually ordered a "vegetarian" pizza lor, like the whole pizza is juz 1 thin layer of bacon on top of e pizza den a HUGE pile of veges on top... anyway the nxt day happened to be jun seng's bday so we celebrated for him wif a small cake... and sheikh hakal (is this how to spell his name... shit) was there and his grp actually INVITED jun seng to the national day bash at sentosa on 8th august... VIP table specially for him lor... the winz

wednesday was zouk, most of e og freshies went... i think of e seniors onli val and jared went... havoc sia e girls... but it's damn frigging sad that in the end the place was so packed that the guys ended up being bodyguards for the girls lor... haha make a circle and e girls dance in e middle... got a few extras i think they went there alone tat type tried to chap in... damn funny like got 1 point got 1 guy inside the circle amongst the girls... DAMN EXTRA LA... i think that guy totally dunno wad is called pai seh sia... oh ya almost forgot... i got my BUTT PINCHED... seriously i pray the guy who did that will have his hand rotten off within the nxt week... fucking hell _|_-.-_|_

friday was val's surprise bday party which was no surprised at all... she didn't even look surprised la... damn gg la esp due to the drizzle... even more gg coz our og onli manage to scavenge a bit of bee hoon 3 chicken wings 2 prawns amongst 7 ppl... ended up we went makansutra and met up wif e working girls who cldn't attend e party... den aft tat moved on to esplanade by the bay area to chill... even went all e way back to marina 7-11 and bought sprite and vodka lol... play all e dumb games and 1 girl nearly got drunk... went back abt 5am like tat... living the wild life man... den today wake up at 12 go NUS for O wk briefing... half dead liao lor...

O wk looks damn boring to say the least but den i think the boring ppl wldn't attend it past the talk day so can't be bothered... i'm juz gonna enjoy it along wif ppl who wan to enjoy the activities...

anyway there was a sports camp briefing today... but my 1st impression is tat my og guys are damn stoned... but i think coz 2 of them came from arts camp which like juz ended, 1 came from basketball training, last one came from work... shit i'm like the onli slacker arnd HAHAHA... LOL

anyway hope for the best la on monday lol i shall end now...

27-2-2007 to 22-6-2007, now tat's nearly 4 mths...

2007-06-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

ok clearing the cobwebs off here again... tot i wld stop for a while after certain hoo haas earlier this yr but nvr expected i wld stop this long... it's reallie like when u stop blogging for like 2 wks and u will juz forget all abt it... :S

anywayz... let's see what has happened since feb... wow tat's kinda long ago... i guess it's mostly abt work at tkps and bitching abt work... it's ok la, the pay's good and everything but sometimes things juz dun reallie work out the way you want it i guess... i got injured i think in march while trying to replace the noticeboard contents... the noticeboard panel fell onto me when i was trying to lift up the stuck portion of the glass, to be exact the medical report stated deep laceration about 4cm in length... well took 9 stitches and 4 wks to heal b4 i cld actually play any sports... zzzz imagine all the badminton i missed...

well now badminton on mondays is like a regular thing, tampines sports hall 8pm to 10pm... i wonder if i'll be able to commit to this kinda things esp after i matriculate into NUS...

speaking of uni, ya i reapplied for accountancy courses in both NUS and NTU, dint bother trying SMU, my GP sux and i doubt there's anyway my essay/interview's gonna impress, which is also y i dint even bother to try for scholarships (USP, wadeva)

ironically i still got called up by NTU, apparently this yr's application is rather competitive... even AABs have to be decided by GP scores... :S which explains why i'm ending up in NUS doing BBA(ACC)... new course

so after quiting my job some where mid may, been training up to shape for competitive dota... onli to realise that the gap btwn competition and pvt dota games is 10 times the difference btwn tat of pvt and public dota games... grrrr long way to go and a more careful pick of teams needed... zzz

anyway i shall move on to a more recent part, NUS BIZAD FOC CAMP (aka business administration social camp). freaking nice experience coz basically i'm like the onli vj guy who attended the camp... wait maybe nt one of my og mates said there's another one... gonna check up e name later...

anyway, the camp is organised for arnd 150 ppl out of the 700+ from our batch going to bizad this yr, and they tried to get more guys to go for this camp coz apparently the guy girl ratio is like 1:5 for NUS bizad... well if i wld quote : "good for the guys, sad for the girls" lol... but apparently there was still a shortage of guys and the male OGLs had to stand in to cover up the balance in the sp game... which is kinda lame...

the whole camp was fun, getting wet up from day 1 all e way to day 3, with the 2nd day in sentosa... well i guess my onli regrets during the camp wld be to jump to certain conclusions particularly too early... haiz bad bad bad habit of mine... emo is a double edged sword haha... oh ya our female facilitators (basically the ppl who joined the camp to help facilitate activities) commented our og guys are quite emo... LOL emolitez is the way to go man

haha ok la but thanx to 1 1/2 days exposure to UV rays i finally got my 1st sunburns... actually aft day 2 i was still ok... we spent 1 full day from morning till nite at sentosa... freaking fun i juz love beach games... all the dunking, sand, water bombs, wootz... day 3 morning was pool games at NUS... which totally toasted me... haha and ALSO IT"S TIME TO WORK OUT THAT FAT TUMMY FROM NS... GG CHANGI V

wahaha, i'm contemplating joining sports camp and union camp... shitz think i'll put my name down for both 1st... registration's tml :P

anyway my og's meeting up on monday... good at least our og is strong even after camp.. unlike certain... ok this will lead to emo, NO MORE EMO :P

hehe think i'll update here often after this... prolly but see how... anyway i'm nt realeasing this site to NUS peepz yet :P

oh ya another regret, i dint get my SP's HP or EMAIL... wa lan eh sibei GG lor...

Edit: hmm on 2nd tots, it's like aft camp alr... haiz nvm i think i'll juz put the link back on my msn

Edit: here are some of the pics :P

my og - CRUSADES

Crusades @ sentosa 1

Crusades @ sentosa 2

ok basically this is a punking session coz the girl on top of me... IS NOT A FRESHIE... zzzzz they planted yr 2s into our ogs to pose as freshies and the guy standing on the left is her bf la... zomg i got PUNK`ED (the game was for guys to piggy back girl while blindfolded while girl throws water bomb thru hoop, soccer style)

Crusades in da pool

me and my sp, idiotic... they nvr ask me to smile den take the photo de, den still can label wrongly... zzzzz trying to get them to change :P anyway my sp is hot ok... peace

Trying to stop myself from gourging my eyes out

2007-02-27T18:28:00.000+08:00

Before i begin on explaining my rather disturbing topic... let me warn those potential cheaters at medical examinations... dun ever withhold info

back to topic... like i alwayz used to believe, god was never fair. there are strong ppl and weak ppl in this world, rich and poor, fertile lands and barren deserts.. everyone is different and that makes everyone unique... yet god is ever fair because where there is strong ppl, there wld be weak ppl, thus equilibrium exist.

ok tat sounded like uther bullshit god is imba period

as some mite know today was my medical examination for NTU admission... which the 1st paragraph mite give some insight of what actually transpired during the short 2 hour stint there... half of which spent trying to find where the **** is the medical centre... the place is big nonetheless

a lot of the words that the doctor told me actually hit me hard... of what reality out there is like... of what bearing the consequences mean... if you are willing to cheat, bear e consequence if u get caught... he's rite, out there it's not like army... u can't cover ur ass by juz keeping quiet...

so i've made up my mind... since god wants to match such burning interest with a major defect, i'm onli left with 2 choices : one is to gourge my eyes cry out to god shouting for fair judgement and perhaps once in a while go to bedok/bugis street to beg, or to try for another course... trip E is out of question and i dun reallie feel like falling back on my 2nd choice for engineering (aerospace)... i heard there's a new course smth like financial engineering (dunno wtf lame kind of name is tat... u manufacture MLM is it?)

i was wrong, i've been bluffing myself for too long that i can get into trip E... it's time to wake up move on and get smth else... b4 it's too late...

Protégé & Letters from Iwo Jima

2007-02-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

watched 2 movies in like 3 days... woot protégé was good... e execution of the plot was good but pretty much predictable... looks more like a drug documentary on e other hand... lol now ppl know how to make heroin...

Letters from Iwo Jima was touching... after watching Flags of our Fathers, it's nice to know wad was happening on the other end of the war...

oh ya GV vivo has sucky seats for tall ppl in the normal cinemas... e inclination is so bad tat 3rd row and forward i have to arch my neck to see the screen alr... wth... but omg VIVOcity is BIG... as in BIG... i think it will take at least 2 days for serious shoppers to actually finish walking thru the whole building... plus it's like the cable car station tram station cruise center and shopping all added together = GG BIG

still have no response...

Happy Chinese New Year

2007-02-17T20:49:00.000+08:00

yay... it's chinese new year... which means i've alr worked for 1 month alr... been enjoying e work at TKPS... although there were some frustrating issues but nonetheless it was enjoyable... sorrie to those which i have thrown tantrums at... bah now tat i think abt it it was quite silly for tat outburst...

yay... tml will be getting income... whoops as in ang bao money :D and meet up wif my relatives... hope everything goes fine...

oh regarding the CNY get together... i'll be waiting for the response... if none is given, i'll take it as a grp decision...

Is it too late... Theme of the day

2007-01-25T19:22:00.000+08:00

Lol today can be labelled as emo day... it can also be labelled as masking day too...

in truth too many emo tots came right in my face the whole of today... been getting a few e last few days but today is like *WoW*... most of it i actually remember much but it revolves arnd some previous principles i stood by in the past and how that's changed me... i realise everyone do have different personalities under different circumstances... it's only when the wrong personality surface at the wrong time that causes conflict... pls dun misunderstand i'm not talking about multiple personality disorder... like said tat is an disorder, i'm talking about multiple personality... get e difference??? been wondering about it for a month about the question... does multiple personality exist? or is it just that if you have multiple personality it's a disorder and thus straight case MPD... geez reminds me of e book... can't rem title also... can't remember a few things too... i'm going crazy

anyway the theme of the day is set... but i remember clearly what i have set out to overcome... i juz hope i can achieve it... Harmony Honesty HOPE Humility JOY Kindness LOVE Peace RESPECT Responsibility... LOL y am i lining up TKPS's 10 values of life... GG

Finally i can get my dog online

2007-01-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

Enjoy:

New Year Day reports

2007-01-02T09:03:00.000+08:00

1stly i got a new PHONE!!! nokia 6288.. finally can start uploading pics... need to get e ftp address cum pw from yl again... shit...

2nd gonna spam application for job liao... yl send me e thing again... i'm still trying to find...

tat again... my parents juz bought a 32 inch lcd tv and a dvd recorder/player... gg nic can lend me dvd to watch liao... yay!

and 1st step in unplugging... i finally slept at proper timings last nite... well 10 - 6... missed out on a supper invite though... nxt time call earlier k? lol

spamming time!

1OBN EOY gathering and missed New Year countdown...

2007-01-01T08:21:00.000+08:00

still super stoned after over sleeping last nite and missed meeting up wif nic tj marc robin and several others at cosafe for countdown... lol our regular haunt...

1obn EOY gathering was enjoyable... although majority arrived 30 mins after desginated timing... was there at 5 on the dot expecting to see ppl there alr waiting but all i got was a near empty mrt station... called up several ppl to find out that nearly everyone was gonna be late... bleuhx... had bbq steamboat for dinner which i must declare I DINT EAT ENOUGH!!!! lol ggfied although i was quite preoccupied wif smth which i dun not know... muz be stoning coz i onli slept 1 1/2 hrs b4 tat... argh... den we had bowling b4 moving over to marc's house... was supposed to play mj down there but it ended up that half the ppl dunno how to play and the other half who were "supposed" to play ended up doing other things instead... i mean likeu go someone else's house for a gathering... u do things which u can't do otherwise alone at home??? it's like -.-.-.-.-.- thanx... so we ended up teaching amos and marcus how to play... marc got it pretty fast but amos was like half blur half stone half dunno wad la... ok tat's 3halves and more than a whole...

came back at 12pm yesterday and fell asleep e moment my hair is dry from bathing.... all e way until 1am... yeah i'm the power... ate "dinner" at 1am b4 falling asleep in front of the tv (YET AGAIN) until 430... been up since... shld be going out wif my parents after this post... go tampines eat cartel.. den they'll most prob bug me to change e starhub line, buy new tv, buy new monitor, grrrr commitments when ur e only english understander of the family... can't be helped i guess.... haiz haiz haiz... i'm getting periodic seizures or smth like seizures lately... like u feel ur mind is juz gonna collapse for like 1/2 a sec... hmmmm

The Internet World as The Alternative Criminal World

2006-12-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

Recent spat of event have kept me thinking of the state of the internet world from 8 yrs ago till now... what is it exactly depicting? our alternative fantasy world as like the games Final Fantasy, cold harsh environments or a constant fight for survival like Resident Evil...

i think it's more of the matrix, but with the righteous sides reversed... certain behaviours non condoned in the materialised real world seem to thrive better and are of greater acceptance inside this fake yet so real world... perhaps becuz it's not bounded by much laws that such deemed more survivalistic traits are favoured... all for one and one for nobody... win win win...

and in saying so, let us digress to the individuals out there who are seemingly stuck on to this other side of the force... people who seek onli the companion of a seemingly lifeless form called the computer... anime freaks/otakus/gaming otakus... are we just escaping from the real world to thrive here by indulging most of our time on these supposedly electronic entertainment?

how far does one go into this fake world... how far are u plugged in... several questions u can ask yourself:
how much time u spend?
how lost do you feel without it?
how plugged in are you?
do you even socialise?
my god i love my bookcases
i like being single
i prefer to live off my parents

get real my brothers... get a life... it's time to unplug and face the real world... the fact that you're a fool still doesn't change... afterall it's your life your wasting away... not mine... i'm alr unplugging as of now...

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Boiling point

2006-12-26T03:51:00.000+08:00

2 ppl are seriously antaganizing me rite now... one is my mum and e other being an oblivious blogger

mum 1st... wtf is wrong wif holding poker cards... wtf is wrong wif going out wif friends to play cards (not gambling mind you....) wtf is wrong wif u and ur omgwtfbbqzzz thinking... simple

back to the stubborn oblivious blogger... who reallie juz can't face up to reality and prefers to stay in his cooped up apartment enjoying bookcases of books, admiring them and even taking photos of them for memberance... wow sounds damn otaku rite??? of coz he is one dun worry but no prices for guessing... wan to meet him? maybe u can contact him here... http://zerohero.textfiend.net

simply put a conclusion to it, since he's so stubborn in his views that what we do is cheeky and politically inapt in his world, let's juz leave him stuck in his own "bookcased" world shall we not? on the hind sight, we've been fortunate to spot one of the ancient cavemen who rather stick wif their own fantasized world rather than face up to facts... maybe he's juz jealous we can make so much contact with the maids at cosafe... (sorrie no links coz website not up yet...) maybe he's juz too shy to approach them wad so ever... look he dint even dare to ask to take photos of them... he had to rip from others... in his world, he's the knight in shining white armor trying to fend off his enemies from hitting on the beauties... who is e enemy and e beauties doesn't require guessing... if it does... u belong to his world... go to the above link

when prophets show up to disprove of his world, he sternly puts them all off, waving them like "LIES!" "HERESYS!"... juz as king terenas refused to believe in the warning given by medivh in warcraft 3... no they are cheeky lil kids wif sexual overdrive... they are like this and nothing u say will change it... even though the world is changing before him, he refuses to accept the changes... my world is the real world... MINE!!!! maybe he tot the maids belonged to him at a certain point and creamed in his pants... we do not know and do not wish to know...

ignorance is bliss... lol let him be in his blissful world... i'm quite sure 1obn has explained enough in terms that wad we did was juz to poke fun at each other... if this guy can't accept it... i'm sure some others can... leave him be is the final verdict... you're not worth our time zer0 the zero hero

Indecency and Inetiquette all in one dish

2006-12-25T07:49:00.000+08:00

was back at cosafe on friday nite and yesterday nite... yes i was back there on e day i posted i'm nearly pok becuz of cosafe... like i said i'm contradicting... but tonite we nearly experienced first hand wad was called sexual harrassment... apparently some foreigner was quite drunk and at a certain point in time he fell over to e floor becuz his chair collapsed.... of wadeva reason i'm not too sure... but wad happened was that he was so shocked/weak that he had to be pulled up to standing position with e help of 3 other customers present at the cafe... after a few unsteady assurances that he was ok, he started hitting on 3 of the maids who were there concern over his "fall of grace" and while doing so he started walking closer and closer to one of them, whom i shall not name due to respect of their shop's policies... and while doing so i saw his hand reach for a certain sensitive part of your body on your back... whereupon i wld have acted if not for his sudden stagger that made his hand failed to reach the proposed target... i'm wondering wad wld happen if it weren't under e watchful eyes of 6+3+1 male down there and instead onli floyd the shop's managing director was there... and there was not onli 1 but 3 other foreigners... hell wld set blaze at chijmes...

2nd was the total lack of respect a anime blogger showed towards us 1obn and one of our members... by linking our blogs to his without permission was bad enough... on top of that he had to label us names as "cheeky boys" "young boys" and the such... so wad if he's a old FUCK and apparently well knowned in the anime bloggersphere thru e no of links on his website... he's juz a NOOB FUCK when he does stupid things like that and it totally infuriates others who juz wan their blogs to be private and accessible to several others... in any case he has a lot of issues to sort out wif us and cosafe and i'm not letting it pass easy... no respect coming = no respect outgoing, tat's my stand...

waaaa... damn shag...

2006-12-22T04:01:00.000+08:00

playing bad minton twice for 2 hrs in two days is BAD for health... note e space

damn shagged by my mind is so awake i can't slp... fell asleep for 1 hr or so at yl's place juz now... like totally... den they were recording 1obn anthem... damn darn funny la... 6 gay boi band... ok juz kidding dun kill me

toking wif nic and marc over msn now... damn blur damn tired damn fuck care.... yawnz

apparently marc's guess who is attached... mine = tsun w/o e dere in there terms... yes i know i lousy... wadeva... 23 is a magic number... few ppl know wad it means anyway i'm not telling...

haiz still damn sad dunno for wadeva reason... maybe it's becuz i onli left 250 BUCKS UNTIL I GET A JOB DAMN IT... zzzzzzzz cosafe ate 100 bucks off me... T.T but ok la 100 bucks for so much fun and lessons learnt is good...

infatuation vs crush...

2006-12-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

at first we decided todae tat infatuation = more chim term for crush... and came up wif e term can i infatuate ur balls... (this is aft my 3rd visit 3rd day in a row to CHIJMES)

but aft consulting the dictionary... i figured a difference...

Infatuation = UNREASONABLE strong feelings of love for someone, especially one whom u do not know very well
Crush = UNCONTROLLABLE feelings of love for someone, especially for one who is older than u

ahhhh... so i was rite in saying i have an infatuation for someone... no prizes guessing who... but e image may go away soon coz she mite be attached... or tat mite be juz her brother... it's family day u know :P but ok la... passing infatuation used to it liao :P

Maid Cafe

2006-12-16T04:07:00.000+08:00

was jioed at nearly last min to go down to e maid cafe at chijmes yesterday wif nic kj shane an kwok... Cosafe Maid Cafe is e name... CHIJMES is e place... juz opposite from raffles city...

basically when i finally got there and went 1 full round to e mrt station from CHIJMES and back... e 1st impression tat kwok kj and nic (shane was late) got was tat it's omfg funny... which i dint get at all until one of e waitresses said out "Good Evening, Master"... ok i get it...

so in e end they thought it was not worth e time so we went to raffles city to find food cum la kopi... in e end settled for Cafe Cartel... along e way saw a grp singing and nic and i were positive we say shi li there singing... msged her but no reply... maybe change of no or dun recognize my new no or juz too bz... dunno la...

in e end marcus was at maid cafe wif his 3 other friends... so we ended up going up to meet up wif him... and thus we decided to juz try out e place... and guess wad... i ended up being there from arnd 10 to 2... e place not so bad but i guess we're too rowdy and a rather large grp in e end thus e waitresses nvr approach us for small talk.... blah... and i ended up wif a dare to get phone no etc details from one of e waitresses... failed badly for my 1st try... bruised ego and all... T.T

blah... definitely unforgetable coz 1st time trying to get stranger girl's no.. lol... we stayed until e staff all left b4 we left... but most of e grp left b4 tat alr so was left wif me marcus and nic... talked a lot of things... reminds me of e days i spent wif ppl who i can talk abt anything or everything under e sun... in different parts of my life...

discuss a few personal topics on e way back... hmmmm time for some good thinking boi...

edit on 25 dec 2006 07.45pm : wth am i doing here on christmas day itself... ok i'll explain why:

becuz some ignorant f*** juz refuses to accept/seek clarrification on certain matters pertaining to maid cafe... and starts setting inaccurate judgements lambasting our behaviour... and since he has linked this particular post, it wld have been better if ppl visiting got the whole picture

regarding the dares/forfeits, we have tried to apologise to the waitresses later on in the night and on other nights regarding our rowdy and in some other people's terms CHEEKY behaviour... but they have alr told us it was ok and that they are welcome with people seeking fun at their cafe... particularly also becuz it was our 1st time there and we're not too sure what ground rules they have set down for their general staff either... if you're not okay wif tat then perhaps you can just keep your mouth shut and look on instead of lambasting everyone who are ok with that... fair ground?

and seriously if you want to put my full name down there... better be careful of what you say about me

edit 25th dec 2006 09.56pm : thanx for removing my name but wad about the wrong insinuations you are still directing at us by hyperlinking our blogs...

ZzZzZ... morning discussion over teh 2 teh-o and copi-o

2006-12-13T07:31:00.000+08:00

considering i'm trying to kill myself by staying up the whole night of last nite... i'm impressed i survived thru e whole discussion alive awake and eyes wide open...

basically it's abt wad i'm gonna do in e nxt 7 mths until i matriculate... e discussion by me my mum my ex tutor and her (yes her... dun envy) husband... wif suggestions of 6 mth contracts and e such... everything suddenly went downhill when i mentioned e letter pertaining early matriculation in april... which led to several misunderstandings (all by my mum) tat i dunno that if i break e contract halfway and early matriculate, i need to pay a lot of money & the such... which is like totally good way to hit off ur day... basically my ex tutor impressed my mum so much tat wadeva i said dun really register... wad my mum dun understand is tat i wish not to juz spend my 7 mths stoning in front of 2 driving books and 1 steering wheel while feeding off my parents... not my way of doing it and neither do i promote it... and thus... after several conflicts and a severe rejection of 150 bucks "donation"... my mum's going to work... which leaves me for a few hrs of peace b4 lunch at simei... good grief and praise e lord...

basically my plan wld be somewhere along e line tat i work for 6 mths preferably stop in july while taking driving over e wkends... which cld fit nicely into my self spending budget and not eat into someone else's... so much for "driving lessons are cheaper in the day" :S geeeezzzz

Food for thought

2006-12-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

juz heard over the radio... e question --> Mother-in-law unhappy wif ur current monetary status and dislikes (note: dislike != disallow) ur daughter to date u... wad can u do to improve e situation?

nice question of superficiality... but i guess both ur gf and u wld be under a lot of pressure if this arises... damn sad coz ur gf wld be like stuck in e middle and u wldn't wan ur gf to worry so much and trying to think of solutions to please ur mother-in-law

although a thing of e past.. eloping wldn't be ethically correct for both u and ur gf... so i guess e problem now wld be over time... or rather wad can u do overtime ba... :P

was thinking of smth... but i can onli remember e relation theory... which wld sound all wrong if mentioned seperately... so i shall not mention it here... wld do so if i can remember e whole thing...

resume resume resume.... cv cv cv... argh... write write write...

so far 30th 1obn dinner cum lanover 6th jan 3L2k1 gathering... wad else did i misss... damn... lol wonder if 03S64 gonna have a gathering too... but i think got ppl overseas... bahx see howz i dun mind going if no clash... i'm alwayz up for gatheringz...

ENTP or ESFP... wonders... if u dunno wad these letters mean... dun bother asking...

For ENTPs the driving quality in their lives is their attention to the outer world of possibilities; they are excited by continuous involvement in anything new, whether it be new ideas, new people, or new activities. They look for patterns and meaning in the world, and they often have a deep need to analyze, to understand, and to know the nature of things. ENTPs are typically energetic, enthusiastic people who lead spontaneous and adaptable lives.

For ESFPs the dominant quality in their lives is their enthusiastic attention to the outer world of hands-on and real-life experiences. ESFPs are excited by continuous involvement in new activities and new relationships. ESFPs also have a deep concern for people, and they show their caring in warm and pragmatic gestures of helping. ESFPs are typically energetic and adaptable realists, who prefer to experience and accept life rather than to judge or organize it.

ok according to this test, i'm a ENFP wif 56%, 38%, 12%, 22% strengths in each...

blah... sudden interest in personality test... okay question answered LOL :P

ORD LOH!!!

2006-12-08T11:49:00.001+08:00

PINK IC... STICKER ON 11B... NO MORE GOING CAB!!!

= ORD LOH!!!

now muz flip classifed... or www.jobsdb.com haha

ORD LOH!!!

2006-12-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

PINK IC... STICKER ON 11B... NO MORE GOING CAB!!!

= ORD LOH!!!

now muz flip classifed... or www.jobsdb.com haha

ORD post...

2006-11-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

this is like an update post for me... dunno y i still blog lol... maybe it's juz an avenue for me to rant like i have said million times b4...

so wad shld i rant abt... well continuing from e last post... had a big argument the other day over backdooring issues but aft 1 wk of cooling down i'm back there again... was it becuz i'm juz too easily forgiving or wad i do not know... over dependence? under involvement in other areas??? going out = spending money = no good ; staying at home = play comp all day = no good ... i'm contradictory again...

sometimes i imagine myself being accompanied by an angel and a devil... it's like ur conscience vs ur desire... profound argument non the less but i feel tat is reallie true sometimes... either way my desire is telling me to have fun while my conscience is asking me to FIND A JOB NOW... obviously i'm losing the fight... but e battle goes on i guess... gonna ask timothy tml again abt his mum working at recruitment agency... e bugger dint reply my sms and i forgot to follow up on monday...

oh ya dental ffis are like wtfish... u walk in she asks u to sit down and examine but b4 tat e paper saying ur fit has alr been printed out... i wonder wad will happen if some guy turns up to have rotten teeth... lol...

nowadays bloody slack.... becuz our new 2 ic dunno a lot of things... eg day staff not supposed to rest in the afternoon... 3pm supposed to exercise dog etc etc etc... not tat i care reallie... i get to go off like at 1 pm everyday maybe earlier... staff alr told sgt to give us off whereever whenever possible... but i still kenna 2 search duties... one todae one friday... bloody hell so close together some more... bo bian la... kp also kenna staff subtlely kp back... impressed by him la... it's like oppressive aura everytime he gets u to do things... like there's alwayz a hidden meaning behind his words saying i'm telling u to do this so go do it or else.......... blah 8 more working days... not tat i care... as in abt ns... i care abt my job outside

class gathering soon... tentatively b4 10th dec or aft christmas... i dunno 8 9 10 i'm all free except 8 morning... ord loh... aft christmas prolly and HOPEFULLY i wld be working.... so :S bahx.... i dun even know wad job i wan.... zzzzzz

tried out flyff... finally got a job change... den i realise tat job sux... ok end of the game... haix... it's almost like maple except 3D... i guess i stick to anime doujin and mangas better bleh... still no game can push dota off its seat... waiting to see wad effect wow has on me but too lazy to sign up e us server.... dunno la...

grudge match possibly coming up... big hooha abt it but i dun reallie know e details... a few change in teaming but wadeva... i'm juz there to play... 3rd time alr... we won them 2 times b4 so i dun even know why we shld still need to prove our point again.... bahx

been very apathetic abt things recently... cld it be i take things too for granted again???

audition sea reallie helps sometimes... maybe it's becuz i like music... nvr knew such a psychomoto me can play dance dance revolution type of games... lol but fingers suffer la lol...

this is a very pissed post dun read...

2006-11-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

dunno why i'm like super super pms today... lol guy also can have pms haha... super super super irritated wif ppl wif bad ethics... somemore is ppl i take much regard in... it's like when others... ARGH... e tot of it pisses me off so much... zzzz

it's like in a dota match.. e other side one hero dragging e game... in e end still backdoors... i commented "wah backdooring arh" instant reply from another guy who isnt the culprit "shut up la noob" this kinda thing i tot it wld appear onli in pub games but noooo... it's from a mdf game... a grp delicated to dota... so tell me why wld such unsensitive comments be coming out? and nobody cares abt it... i replied "wtf i was saying the clinx not u..." "fuck off la noob"... enough said... my blood gonna burst alr...

seriously i dun understand why i dun like tat place and i keep going back... it's like i dun like to be addicted to games and i keep playing... i'm a contradictory person... maybe i can grow a pussy and fuck myself... yeah great idea but tat's besides e point... argh i'm screwing up my life and i know it... nobody likes me nobody likes e way i do things fine by me... but if i myself dun like it den smth is wrong... very very wrong...

zzzzz

exciting 20 days... ok quite exciting... er nvm...

2006-10-28T14:51:00.000+08:00

=P my parents juz got the whole electrical works of my house revamped... so now there's like 10 new socket points arnd the whole house... 4 being in my room specially for my comp.. happies!!!

juz signed 7 extra for hmmmm... dunnno whether is kenna sabo or wad la... dun reallie care... ORD loh... 40 days and counting...

nxt month 2nd hand over duties le... yay! everyday 8 to 5 except 2 days... perhaps more coz can get e new buggers to throw us their d*... den can go in at 5pm book out 12 e nxt... better than 8 to 5 on both days dun u think?

anyway they juz held a head pac talk/discussion/meeting on fri... and i can tell u... wadeva my head pac is thinking... she isn't thinking rite... trying to hold a intriguing no bars held meeting wif a bunch of hokkien ping is not exactly e best of ideas.... basically i can say this... 60% cldn't be bothered wif wad she's toking abt coz they dun understand... 30% can't be bothered becuz it wun reallie matter anyway (means they understand but dun get wtf in the world she's trying to bring across (wrong ideas/wrong tone)...) (i'm in this grp btw) 10% are forced to answer.... winners kudoz...

no 1 she started on a exceptionally wrong note... slamming down on an ict pc's laugh by saying it's either skeptical/happy... which is a pretty wrong idea judging from her audience grp (i dare say everyone is juz there so that they can skip some hrs of work) no 2 by asking us to think and give us answers to her questions (eg wad do u think this wld affect ur unit/urself)... not saying we can't think for ourselves but if it's to a bunch of jc students... of coz it wld be wise... but not to a bunch of NSFs thanx... dint SAF juz teach us to juz do and not think too much???

no 3 on one part she said we can't compare incidents wif incidents... but she did juz tat later in e tok... e details are confidential so i can't reallie past anything here but i assure u she did juz tat...

ggfied? well i guess

well 23rd was my bday... thanx to all who wished me... :) had a 4 day break for tat hahahahaha

well e new guys came on e 9th... 2 of them took cab and e cab driver took them to east which is like 18472859346 miles away from west.. ok not tat much a mere 14km... but considering they blew their wallets on e 20 buck plus cab fare to somewhere they're not supposed to go... well done cabbies... and he claims east is e new one west is e old camp... winners

as of e 8 new guys... i wld say we can alr see exact replicas of ourselves/our old birds... as in exact replicas in personality... which can be quite funny sometimes haha

so long... will try to blog more often since i have more time nxt time... ja ne

puke blood no.2

2006-10-06T15:07:00.000+08:00

ok tat was puke blood no 1... yes i feel like puking now dun disturb me... puke blood no 2 has to do wif e haze... any idea wad's happening coz my lungs feels like it's gonna break down any minute...

this post is not abt dota...

2006-10-06T14:55:00.000+08:00

this post is abt ethics.. ethics of ppl playing dota... be it lancraft bnet zion (new shits tat were out sometime ago but i dint bother to chase... hey who needs them when u got bnet)

1. pls dota != taunting...
2. e guy who stayed in a game of leavers is not a noob
3. scolding another guy noob be it correctly or wrongly doesn't make u a pro
4. scolding another guy noob non stop be it correctly or wrongly doesn't make u a pro nor give u the right to continue scolding him
5. even when u get pawned/eaten for bfast lunch dinner supper and some say teatime, it doesn give u e right to scold vulgarities back at the guy who pawned/eaten........

and y am i concerned all abt this.. it's juz a game aint it... ya it's a game played by individuals big and small, fat and thin (think shane and amos), young and old... yes there's 30+ yr old ppl playing too i met b4 and yes pri sch kids too... wait i still haven got to e point... e point is tat even pri sch kids are doing these stupid irritating things ignorantly like as if their world is the most perfect/best world and everyone else not related to them are unnecessary lil peons not even worth the effort to step on and squish them into the abyss of time... jesus christ these are our future my friends...

imagine nxt time u go to an interview, ur holding a degree in ur left a masters on ur right... in front of u is a younger guy holding juz an o lvl cert... he sees ur a strong competitor and he's definitely not gonna get e job... so wad does he do? whips our a parang chops u into 10000 pieces and dumps u outside... ok so now's he's e onli interviewee, he gets e job...

wow tat's a lil extreme and unrelated but certainly if this continues, tat cld possibly be reality and the last 20 mins of ur life

not to mention the cutting of queues, fights generated by i dun like the colour of ur hair, slamming the door in the face of the nxt guy coming thru the same doorway as u... and the list goes on...

competitiveness is one thing... sportsmanship and basic courtesy... pls observe them... well at most we'll juz go back to ice age someday... (think nuke warfare generated by jealous govt that another country raised their oil prices by 1 cent)

1st post of the new beginning

2006-09-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

well as u guys alr know i'm a dota crazy freak... so for something that can make me give up an afternoon of dota and go crazy over it... muz be something real good la arh... oh yeah so go check out the melancholy of suzumiya haruhi... i know some ppl gonna scream ur damn slow in my face rite now but hey... lin lao bei aint as fast as u guys when it comes to anime ok? i got my own pace u got ur own... so mind ur own business =P

basically it's not juz over e anime character (haruhi) it's abt the seiyu (voice actress)... name = hirano aya... check out youtube for her videos... one tat shld impress u is the one on hey! hey! hey! (basically a show in japan like tat of mtv's top 10 songs)... shld be surprising enough to see an anime song appear on no 5 of the top 10 chart (impressive!)... like seeing broken wings from trinity blood appear on mtv's top 10 is like seeing the sun rise from the west lor... (btw tat's a whole english song no jap words at all) FTW!!!

another point is that most of the anime's song is by her... other than the 1st op which is supposedly e op of a 1 ep movie her in-anime character made... not to mention she has 3 singles alr... impressive... and she guest starred on one of the tv drama (catch it on youtube).. DAMN GOOD ARH!!!

100th post =D all smiles

2006-09-08T14:39:00.000+08:00

now tat we've reach the centurium mark of this blog... i wld like to express my thanx to several grps of ppl... 1stly to my army unit for providing me wif so many things to rant wif... haha 2ndly to those who have been here and read my blog... my thanx for ur comments although some not posted here for all to se... so they say at every mark there is an end and a new beginning... i believe so... so wad are we waiting for... let's go!!

RI 02 batch graduation video on You Tube

2006-09-03T03:40:00.000+08:00

yes believe it or not it's there... our batch's graduation ceremony... brings back memories like the nigara falls... non stop overwhelming... power... of the 3 institutions of education i have come from i muz say tat the most memorable/ .... ok it's juz beyond words... RI made me who i am now... undenying facto actuality... prolly 10/20/30/40/50/60/70 (if god actually allows me to live tat long) years down the road i'll still remember the good times i spent there, the soccer/mugging/npcc daze/soc teh/in the class softball/in the class soccer/running to S11 for ban mian/suaning each other in class/SG/warcraft 3/stealth/stealth playing Halflife during computing lessons/GEP thailand trip/orientations... from a follower u begin and a leader u emerge... if u ask me... i'll give anything to go back and live 1 day of my RI life... juz 1 day will be sufficient

and so kudos those the best 4 yrs of my life... and here's a song to all i know from there...

S.H.E - 一起开始的旅程

忽然想到一起开始的旅程这几个字有种温暖的气氛
如果用来形容我们是不是很巧妙传神

从没想过事情会这样发生原本陌生的人闯进了人生
从此生命中多出你们也多出无限可能

一起作伴一起游玩一起分享青春的宝藏
一起前进一起转弯一起想下一个梦想

My baby You baby 什么都不想错过
用心感动这旅程中因你而加倍的感动
My baby You baby 让我多记下一些沿路感受
那将会是我最美最好的收获

这是一段我们秘密的旅程别人很难了解其中的兴奋
可惜没空理会他们我在意的只有你们

一起作伴一起游玩一起分享青春的宝藏
一起前进一起转弯一起想下一个梦想

My baby You baby 什么都不想错过
用心感动这旅程中因你而加倍的感动
My baby You baby 让我多记下一些沿路感受
那将会是我最美最好的收获

感谢你愿意陪伴我不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水变成回忆的彩虹

My baby You baby 什么都不想错过
用心感动这旅程中因你而加倍的感动
My baby You baby 让我多记下一些沿路感受
那将会是我最美最好的收获

Monthly upgrade... i meant update

2006-09-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

haha juz realised e last post was like aug 3rd.. = 1 month nvr post liao =P... winners still prowling nothing great has happened to me... yet i think... nxt upcoming event shld be ORD loh i hope if nothing screws up... well 98 days and counting... yay 3 months... 3 more months and out i go into the FREE WORLD.. liberato impetus... ok i dunno wad i saying there haha...

new level of dota --> teamspeak for the win!!!

The All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

2006-08-03T08:27:00.000+08:00

even when surfing podcast also can find good songs u know... i found this one off some cardcaptor sakura self made movie... sheesh TAAR is juz good la arh =D

"Dirty Little Secret"

Let me know that I've done wrong

When I've known this all along

I go around a time or two

Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away

Find out games you don't wanna play

You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret

(Dirty little secret)

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret

(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)

My dirty little secret

Who has to know

When we live such fragile lives

It's the best way we survive

I go around a time or two

Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away

Find out games you don't wanna play

You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret

(Dirty little secret)

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret

(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)

My dirty little secret

Who has to know

The way she feels inside (inside)

Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)

These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)

And all I've tried to hide

It's eating me apart

Trace this life out

I'll keep you my dirty little secret

(Dirty little secret)

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret

(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret

(Dirty little secret)

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret

(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)

My dirty little secret

Dirty little secret

Who has to know

Hoo haa on National Day song...

2006-07-26T13:41:00.000+08:00

First i state my stand.. i'm no supporter of karia nor other singaporean singers... No. 2 the case : Mass discrimination on Karia being the National Day song singer for this year 2006... Check out TNP 26 Jul (wed) 2006 pg 20-21 : Report includes comments from sgforums and i quote "She is not even famous... looks like now anhy ah neow ah kow also can perform at NDP"

NO. 1 - SHE IS NO AH NEOW AH KOW... try saying tat abt her fellow record mates and ur nose is touching e dirt ur currently standing on... just becuz she is not known here doesn't mean she's not a hit elsewhere (eg Taiwan)...

another one from Lianhe Zaobao and I Weekly and i quote "We were like 'Who's his girl doing the National Day song? Is she a local singer?' Maybe they're trying to promote her... but she hasn't had much exposure"

NO. 2 - U wan to tok abt exposure... look at taufik... i wun call tat much exposure either but he was up there at the icing of the cake wif rui en last year... promoting singers? please... if u see the national day parade as national day gala nite... god bless singapore

same source and i quote "It should at least be a singapore household name"

NO. 3 - look how do u determine a household name? Zoe Tay? Felicia Chin? Abigail? Annabel chong? i'm sure we wld all love zoe tay to be up there... y not she's almost like a symbol for singapore entertainment... and so y not? becuz first and foremost the SONGS dun suit her... call it blind man's luck or wad... Kaira's voice fits the song... i'm sure all have heard it on radio and u were like hey sounds nice and tat's our national day song... until u heard who is e singer... den u go huh who is tat... where in the timbatu did she come from?

Ken Lim and i quote "Whoever sings the NDP song must be recognised by the people. Tat is basic since ur singing for the perople, to the people. If ur not recognisable, how are they going to relate to u"

NO. 4 - true to an extent but wait are we commemorating our country's independance at the parade or the person singing the song... think twice my friend for u have shown injustice to urself by saying u have NOT HEARD of Karia... as one of the judges in our nation's very own talent search for young talents out there in the population of 4 million... u said u DID NOT HEARD of a singaporean young girl who have already did reasonably well in Taiwan... speaks enough

so wad's my conclusion... give tat poor young girl a chance... instead of giving mal comments on somebody else shld be up there doing your job, y not encourage her and trust her to rise to the occasion... of course it's no small occasion to start wif... it's our national day parade... read parade not g.......

todae... doshite...

2006-07-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

after hearing from nic wad's gonna happen in book 13 of suzuka... i can't help it... DDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTEEEEEEE !!!!!!
after finally seeing the idiot get e girl now they are going to break up?!?! WHY!!!!! stupid fellow for one but... WHHHHYYY!!!! juz cut my hair or else i gonna start pulling hairs out alr.... jeeeezzz

anywayz juz came back from K box and bishy bashing... well for first times k box was fun haha... good place for spending time wif friends be it in big grps or small grps of 3 or 4... and nic and co finally brake e bishy bashing record... 1 token finish all 18 events and onli lost 1 life la... gg!! like kai jin's record got owned... dint play much of a part in it though haha... psychomoto me wun do any good anyway... haha

100706: abt love (adapted from suzuka to some extent)

2006-07-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

Ever tot of having someone who can understand u so well tat they know when ur sad and to console u, when ur angry and not to provoke u, and to laugh wif u when ur happy... makes me feel tat way when reading suzuka... well at least i share a few traits as the lead... equally lax and slow, dense, dull, weird... lol sounds like all bad traits... well i think i can add on the oversensitiveness and the way tat u fall in love wif girls when they start being nice to u... ok to add on further is going to steer potential suitors away... well not tat i had any yet in my life... so well shrugz... but seriously i do hate girls who are as badly decisive as suzuka... if u like me pls juz say it... dun make me spend 3 brains worth of cells trying to figure it out... it makes me hate u even more than like u...

070706: too much time

2006-07-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

Too much time on hand makes me think abt lots of things... like whether i wld be who i am if i made another decision 8 yrs ago... wld i be who i am if i dint go to RI... the same person who's weary of others while being tolerant of others at the same time... e same guy who wld put up a smile even when everything arnd is not going rite... one who cld sweep away his troubles by keeping his mind on gaming... i dint grow up to be a man in the army... i alr did thru e yrs b4 i came here... not sure i've seen all the shit of life but i'm sure i've seen most of it... i mean from the wide range of ppl, both bastard and nice, and how things can screw up over the weirdest of reasons... i reallie can't think of any worse scenarios... i may not show it but i'm alwayz constantly thinking of possible good/bad scenarios coming up at the slightest of events... and i dun like to express myself not becuz i am shy... it's becuz i know most of the time things i spurt out w/o thinking really hurts others... someone once told me in pvt tat i reallie need to hold back on some things tat i say and reallie put my brain to it... but it's been reallie tiring... do we have to alwayz do a mindmap to plan out every sentence to e extent of every word we say?? wldn't a simple conversation take hours to complete instead of minutes... but i reallie feel i have to do tat... or else at the rate tat i offend everyone i'll go back to who i was 8 yrs ago... so wad's my choice of plan? tok less... ignorance is bliss... perfect line to express it all... loneliness is not an easy foe to beat... not as a human... no it's even scientically proven from our origins.. tat's y i seek approval... even in e slightest bit it's greatly appreciated...

I need a mobi blog

2006-07-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

lol was quite free in camp these few days so i actually blogged on my phone... ya on my phone and so now gonna transfer here... simple? yay!

290606: Zuo Bian

Ever tot abt which hand u wld use to hold ur partner's hand? Left or right... Since more ppl are right handers i suppose most wld choose right right?(wow double usage of words nxt to each other ^^) But hey think abt this... Our heart lies on which side of our body... left... so shldn't we be using our left hands instead to hold hands... but of coz u can't hold ur partner's left hand wif ur left hand and possibly walk properly.. well i suppose it's still up to individuals... but keep this lil tot in mind... perhaps someone can come up wif a sweet idea from here hahaha... esp when trying to hong3 a girl haha... oh and if ur wondering where e heck i came up wif this??? listen to the song Zuo Bian by Rainie Yang... =D

back from camp...

2006-06-26T17:56:00.000+08:00

playing pangya now wif my friend... got this other person in the game... apparently she says she's 14 la but from e looks of it... bloody obvious it's a fake... den trying to get my friend's address and stuff... pretty lame... are all the upcoming youngsters like this... haiz... think i shld start looking for older women like tat hahahaha... camp's toking abt selling backside hahahaha... ok no link nvm... lalalalala

2 more weeks... shld have understudy... pls... 2 more weeks...

2 more weeks... pay day liao... happys =D

and i finally broke e 100 mark for betting... but one crazy bet 2 days b4 set me back to 80... e germany sweden match... nice win on 2-0 bought both half goal and 1X2... shioks... but now again to 95 coz of a v blur bet on portugal holland draw... crazy match i muz say... 4 red 16 yellows... wth... small wonder i lost but dunno y i bought 15 dollars on tat...

tonite's one... dunno hear a lot of different stuff... some say italy win small some say italy draw go ET... some say switzerland can't win w/o senderos some say switzerland still can win coz ukraine is weak... crazy day... and i tot italy vs aussie + switz vs ukraine was gonna be easy to bet... siao siao... but e looks of it... i'll put 15 on aussie +1.5 10 on switz win 5 on total goals switz match 3... bah a lil bit crazy also... dunno la see how la

On betting on world cup...

2006-06-20T08:53:00.000+08:00

juz to keep track on wad i have bought these days... started betting on day 4 of world cup... which was bad coz the non-freaky matches all happened b4 tat day... at least the confirm win matches by the good teams were properly won by them...

in short:

i lost out on:

korea 2 - 1 Serbia (y e heck they took so long to equalise 15 bucks)
France 0 - 0 Switzerland (grrr repeat telecast of last yr world cup 5 bucks)
England 2 - 0 Trinidad & Tobago (tyco late goal costed me 10 dollars)
Czech 0 - 2 Ghana (dun tok abt this... i'm still pissed wif Czech 30 dollars)
Togo 0 - 2 Switzerland (freakishly both teams attacked well defended not so well... juz tat Togo had a worse day... and freakishly i bought Togo/Draw for HT/FT twice coz i shaded wrongly... know wad's e odds? 18 bucks... crazy... 25 dollars)
Saudi Arabia 0 - 4 Ukraine (if i had read up on the previous matches i wld have bought Ukraine win big... grrr 5 bucks)

and cashed in on:

Spain 4 - 0 Ukraine (well at least they dint disappoint me... too bad was a ESP/ESP or else better odds)
Sweden 1 - 0 Paraguay (89th minute goal almost had me on hyper mode)
Netherlands 2 - 1 Ivory Coast (damn heng Ned had 10 man for e last 15 mins due to late injury)
France 1 - 1 Korea (87th min equaliser was nice... This was revenge betting btw)
Spain 3 - 1 Tunisia (again 3 late goals realise my ticket for -1 1/2 spain)

in e end now still losing arnd 49 dollars... damn bad considering i'm betting 5 /10 dollars onli.... argh and e nxt few matches coming up aint easy to decide on... zzzzz

DOSHITE?!?!?!?!?!

2006-05-30T03:16:00.000+08:00

ARGH i feel like pulling my hairs off alr.... was watching last exile until now but i dint realise i onli have until episode 25!!!! and the last episode IS EPISODE 26!!! WA LAO!!! like i stay up until so late EXPECTING to finish the whole series... AND I DUN GET AN ENDING TONITE.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... i'm gonna jump... dun stop me.... *hop*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the aftermath

2006-05-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

luckily all seems well coz all they needed was e police report and a 50 dollar check... no strings attached... well at least i'm still trying to get used to a freaking flat wallet... last measured arnd 0.6cm in thickness... no atm no ezlink no money no coin... great...

surviving on cab rides, a borrowed ezlink, and some spare cash... which doesn't include e 35 + 30 + 7 dollars i owe ppl... and 50 dollar slap in e face by NS inc...

on another issue :
we are underhanded, TAB is underhanded (8/20), everywhere is reported underhanded... so WHY THE HECK IS CAB MT LINE RECEIVING 10 PPL AT THE END OF THIS MONTH....

-.-

Lost wallet...

2006-05-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

now tat i have calmed down a lil bit... time to curse...

to the fucker who stole my wallet:

wish u,

eat food genna choke
cross road genna knock down
walk down stairs fall down
walk on the road genna bird shit
walk on grass genna dog shit
running trip over stone fall face flat on shit
play dota lose 1000 matches
play anything also lose
gamble lose until left tattered underwear
drink water also choke
breathe also choke
sleep genna nightmare
sleepwalk into wall
20 yrs old dio cancer
25 yrs old dio stroke
30 yrs old dio AIDS (i'm nice enough for u to live 30 fucking yrs u worthless piece of shit)
31 yrs old go to hell
1 million yrs cannot reincarnate
reincarnate come back as a tree... and i'll be there to piss on you i promise
may u enjoy the last 2 to 3 yrs of peaceful life u're gonna have... coz i know u are abt 17 to 18 yrs old...

becuz aft that grace period... ur hell will begin...

from: the messenger

PAP wins... yet again

2006-05-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

like everything came out as expected... no changes in the parliament....

yay finally got BoA's Your Colour... theme song for 99 nights... ok i'm gonna start dling BoA songs soon la... she's good hahaha...

went swimming yesterday... like how long nvr swim sia... a few laps seh alr lor... lol but not bad la... e sun not v bright so dint get much a tan... quite wasted haha =P

oh dear overspending... ahhh i wan my 1k on pay day... shen shen shen!!!!! *concentrates hard on saving cash* >.<

Nxt up...

2006-05-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

ok so by the end of this month we're at the bare minimum to run dog sect... 4 duty areas 2 shifts 8 ppl... wow...

like someone takes mc and we're screwed big time... and it juz happened.... + new dog's training juz extended another week... had to cover duty yesterday like a zzz... no offs coz i left early in e morning... and today they fetched me late back... so like a wtfgg...

蜜雪薇琪 (mi xue wei qi) is a good grp... not v well known but check out the songs ai4 si1 ji2 mo4 and du2 li4... =D

see more cheena songs... this is good... now muz go on to england songs... i mean english... =P muz be multi racial k? juz like singapore... muz include malay songs too hahahaha... =P =P =P but no pinoy songs... they lag... oh oops this aint dota... hahaha

in case those ppl who dun understand e above... pinoy = phillipino... and phillipino playing dota on singapore host = lag at lvl 6 and quit = leaver + lagger = BANNED! =D

Life nowadays...

2006-05-01T08:58:00.000+08:00

yes i'm gonna blog abt life... 1st blog on e brand new internet...

Life nowadays is full of haiz... let's begin wif dog sect... so in e end how many new guys came in? 1... ichi... satu... yi1... yes a meagre one... 7 went to tengah and sembawang... paya lebar also 1... y? becuz they have lesser ppl there... like y not 4 each? y does it have to be 7 and 1... tat is life...

Life is unfair...

or so claims some ppl... but pls kindly do ur research b4 u guys even say anything... reallie... wadeva u guys are trying to prove doesn't seem v enough for us to go along wif u... find smth new and impt and try again...

sad case tat e 1st blog on e new isp has to be a semi flaming one... juz can't stand things nowadays... coz it all feels so bullshit sometimes...

bah i'm e next shift ic... juz e name onli coz there's not enough ppl at e moment... now on some heartier stuff...

do u realise tat foreign language helps a lot in expressing love?... it's like there's a big difference in saying "i love u" and "sarang heiyo"... listen to e song zhi3 dui4 ni3 shuo1 by JJ Lin... it's like such a moving song la... like terms like aishiteru... although tat mite be a lil outdated.... i dunno wad language is sarang heiyo... someone mite wan to look it up... but seriously... e effect is like synergizing (is this e correct term? like 2+2 not = 4 but = 8)... u guys out there mite wanna try smth like tat e nxt time u profess ur love to someone... i'm 99.99% sure it works... 0.01% of coz for e zi4 xiang1 qing2 yuan4 kind =D =P

ok i'm finally out of e anime phase... proves tat overindulgence for me into smth can juz destroy all trace of liking for it... somehow this theory fails on dota but... haha at least i'm no longer crazy over anime... it's like my playlists are almost clear of jap songs... lol i think boa is gonna fit in nxt...

and why? check out e game 99 nights on xbox 360... it's the OMG of all dynasty warriors genre games... yes... it's the OMGWTFBBQ standard of that genre... if u still dun get wad i mean.. go online yahoo google or wadeva... search for 99 nights trailer... anyone wld do... it's the OMGWTFBBQ ownage of dynasty warriors... gameplay graphics story music... GG dynasty warriors...

well for those faint hearted ones... here's a theory tat has so far proven true... THE THEORY OF EQUILIBRIUM STANDS!!! check out ronaldino for proof.. =D

NO INTERNET... WTF

2006-04-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

zzzz stupid pac net... deactivation wef from 1st april and until now they are still holding my phone line... going to check e termination status tml den reply to singnet ppl... zzzz so much trouble for some lousy service... zzzzz

bah they say 7 ppl per airbase one day... 2 ppl coming our dog sect e nxt... dunno wad safpu is thinking...

Otaku level : almost there...

2006-03-18T17:25:00.000+08:00

haha y do i say so... let's see e definition of otaku... someone who watches anime , reads manga , plays doujins , collects figurines of anime characters OBSESSIVELY

kk so let's analyse myself... i watch anime (1/4) , reads a bit of manga... online one (2/4) , played touhou (3/4)... but i dun collect figurines... and i guess i nvr will due to 3 good reasons

No Money, No Space , No Interest... NMSI hehe

ok so anime update:

bleach until 71 (still dling 72...)
Mai Otome until 22 (ongoing.. Mai coming out nxt ep!!!... ppl mite find e show recycling of ideas and drawings from e prequel but there's a difference... they're making the characters who had less appearances in e prequel to have more say in this series... not bad)
Karin 1-3 (hilarious... hahaha)
Elfen Lied (yes i finished it becuz my campmates insisted on watching... get past ep 4 and u'll be fine... or else juz die of e gore and quit)
Tsukihime (v nice... although i hate sad endings... i repeat i hate sad endings... T.T)
Shakugan no Shana until 20 (slow dls... haiz...)

haha enough of anime... let's get back to real life...

had 2 encounters wif death e past 3 wks... one is my neighbour who passed away last wk from leukemia (is this how u spell it... blood cancer or smth like tat) pretty sudden coz apparently she's been fine aft a few treatment... 50+ onli.. no kids and now her husband is like all alone in e house... pitiful...

2nd thing happened to me... dun worry i dint die but i guess i mite have... stunned by lightning... luckily no burns or anything at all... juz a second of stun... happened when i was closing e gate... think e lightning struck e fence somewhere arnd base and a current was put thru e whole perimeter... sigh... quite lucky arh i was wearing rubber slippers... but dun think they wld really help if e real thing comes directly on me... phew...

oh well going back to camp liao... muz make do of my promise to myself to get my internet changed this coming dismount... it's e best timing i've been waiting for... cannot miss it...

ja ne! nyuu~!! ^^ =D

something interesting

2006-02-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

lol... online tests nvr fail to give me surprises and laughs...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

lol i'm a dangerous person to date ok.... dun touch me... ^^

finished Mai Hime

2006-02-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

yay took time off and finished up Mai Hime... nice series but not for e die hard power rangers haters hahaha... but this is like so much much better than pr... like pr = shit in hell while mai hime = angel in heaven... if u can get e comparison haha...

hehe dun slam me but i prefer midori over mai... =P =P =P

but not bad la i discovered smth new while watching mai hime... tat's "what do you want in life" heh i'm not gonna post here abt it tat's for sure but i realise some point in life u reallie have to ask urself tat question... times change so do ur goals... losing sight of your goal in life is like trying to walk in fog... buuuuu... but at least it sets my mind at rest for now... 10 more months to go... den i have to start changing some mindsets alr... hehe

realised i like looking out of e window and see e scenary go by but not noticing anything in particular at all... it's juz like u use a video cam and set it on a moving vehicle w/o adjusting any angle and stuff... watching things go by u... like pulling urself out of your body and watch things go by like tat... a few moments of tranquility... haha great for relieving inner stress and wrath at times... =D

anywayz shall not post any spoilers on mai hime here... dun wan to get hammered by a grp of ppl =P

2006-02-20T16:40:00.000+08:00

back from another mount... although it was onli 2 days i was feeling like totally shagged out alr... prolly due to e heat and v bad sleeping timing...

oh well but all is good... watched a few anime while in camp... dunno y but i see a bunch of ppl on msn whose nics are either jap or chinese... haha anime fever...

list of animes watched:

Bleach (until 69... still on going)
Kanon
Suzuka
Onegai Sensei
Shakugan No Shana (until 18... damn nic hurry up and dl..)
School Rumble (until 10... i realise cannot watch this all at once... will get sian of e lameness ^^)
Shuffle!
Yami To Boushi To Hon No Tabibito (ep2... yes i know this originated from e h game but it aint so in e anime la..)

still to go :
Onegai Twins
Mai Hime

lalalala looks like it's gonna be quited packed eh? haha...

2006-02-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.
You should major in:
Natural sciencesComputer scienceCreative writingMathArchitectureJournalism

What Should You Major In?

went out to watch fearless... not bad e show... can recommend watching... haha

sign 1 extra 1st thing on v day... like #$&^@#*.. haiz nvm... at least e worst is over bah...

screw safpu we need ppl...

i understood wad ur saying...

A sad story...

2006-02-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

flashback...
it all started 3 yrs ago... i had strong feelings for this girl... yet aft some time we started to drift apart... although we broke up shortly aft tat i still cldn't forget her...

two days ago...
i juz finished dinner and den suddenly a strong bad feeling hit me... it's like classic anime style when u feel like smth bad is going to happen... shortly aftwards i went to check my phone... in it says we're giving a farewell party for her coz she's leaving for australia (which i know of alr... the flight is on the 14th)... tat's when it all started again... i had duty on saturday... and it's to east which means wad time i can make it depends on wad time the driver picks me up on sunday morning...

yesterday...
figured out 2 options i cld take... one is to change duty wif someone... or to risk smth happening leaving my dog over at east... decided e 1st one was safer but cldn't find anyone except the one covering base duty who's willing to change... base duty on sat is like a confirm 6 hours prowl which is like infinity times worse den e east duty which we juz go over there to sleep for standby... took me 2 hrs to finally decide it's worth e effort...

todae...
so the day comes... i went off at 6... much to the displease of my camp mates... apparently they wanted me to wash e kennels 1st b4 moving off but i guess if i left early i cld come back for breakfast and have a wash up b4 going down... but along the way smth inside me changed... images of wad had been / cld have been / mite have been came into my mind... all at the same time... it swayed my decision of going down... i do not know y... i even consulted someone abt it... but in the end...

no decision arrived... time made e choice for me... and so now i'm here... still sitting at home... not knowing whether to regret my foolishness...

knowing that u can't forget her is one... trying to love another while doing tat... it's a sin...

to everyone...

Gomenasai... Boku wa baka desu...

to her... sorrie for not going down today... dun think i'll be in the right mind and mood to be there... all the best in your studies, take care of yourself... i dun think u will miss me... but i'll definitely will

i'll be working on valentine's day

regards

1st anime to make me cry...

2006-02-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

for e record... it's been like 2 yrs since i last cried... well i dint cry when my grandma passed away... i dint cry while watching i not stupid too (apparently ppl say got 1/2 e cinema took out tissues halfway thru e show)...

why e heck did i cry while watching kanon... haiz...